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hi guys whats up! i dont like how i look white, i know i am a lil white but ppl dont know what i really im and they just suspect that i am white b/c i have blonde hair or b/c my skin color...i dont like it at all. what got me thinking about it so much is b/c after skool i was with one of my good friend and shes black (not trying to be races) and this black girl comes up her and says why do u always hang around this white girl! and u know how that felt when i was standing there i was so angry! i hate that some much...i hate how i look, someimes i wish i wasnt even me! come on seriously to top that i am white im not even pretty! u guys dont know how it feels when someone just looks at u and just hates u by just b/c how i look! they dont even know me and they just say i am white, they dont even ask they just say hey white girl or that white girl is funny etc... i dont want to be me i really dont.! rite now i wish i can just disapper and i bet no one will know i am gone...thats what my mom did to me, i guess all the other ppl should do it to... i shouldnt put this on u guys i just go, think how ppl think about me and how dum i am. i have nothing to live for, i wont kare to die rite now... bye bye u guys ill talk 2 u guys later. the white girl has left the journal...