dream as though you'll live forever ...
hmMm ... so i got bored n made a new journal thing. its like 2:2O aM n everyones asleeeep =( well except me & judy lol anyways i think its been a week since i updated my other journaL so i`ll continue in heree..so yeahhh
new years eve/new years + was great .. my parents went out & partied til 8aM haha oh mann* so i had my cousins over & surge of course .. we hung out in my basement.. drank, played po0l n watnot..yaknoo, i had like 2 drinks by midnite n i was fineee until carlo showed up & straight killed me with 2 incredibLe hulks lol so yeah i was gonee after that ..dont remember much after like 2aM .. i remember at midnite we all were callin ppl like crazyy off our cellfones lol us and the rest of the world ..anyways we took lotsaa pictures with my camera lol i put it into good use ..after bein sick for a bitt i passed out a lil before 4am ..the next mornin we woke up at like 10.. did some cleanin n then went to the diner cuz i just hadta get outta the house, then we came home, cleaned some more, got rid of stuff & went to a restaurant in newark to pick up fo0d for my parents then we came bak, ate some more lol n watched finding nemo, my big fat greek wedding & MIB II .. after that they left ..
fRiday + i hung out with shanna .. we drove around for a bit lookin for somethinn to do.. then kraus called me cuz i told him i wanted to see him so he called n told me he was goin to mikes n convinced me to go .. anyways it was like 11ish n we drove to colonia to mikes n it was a lil awkward but cool i guess.. it was me shanna kraus mike annmarie nickperez jessremo n two other guyss then rachael showed up.. nothin special, we mostly sat around lookin thru uc yearbooks while some ppl played flipcup. i wanted to play but i hadta drive so i cudnt .. blah o well..good nite, i missed nick, cuz i rarely everrr see him but i heart that kidd, hes the best =)
saturday + hMm.. tough time rememberin what i did, dunno why.. but okkkay yeah me n steph went to the mall, i got a pair of jeans, n four shirts.. yay me i finally bought somethinn lol
sunday + was officially the laziest day ever for me.. i was such a bum n did nothing ALL day lol yeah so theres nothing to tell !
yeahh really i stopped carin about shit, i used to care what ppl thought , way back when but really its not important.. i like the life i live, the way i am, fcuk what anyone else thinks.. its not my job to please the world so dont expect me to.. sounds like alot of anger but its not.. just sayinn whats on my mind, i really have learned alot the past few weeks.. sittin in traffic today on my way home from the mall i did alot of analyzin on the past two years of my life n realized how different i am in only 3 weeks of change..
1. i no longer cry
2. im happy (woo-hoo)
3. i dont stress everything
4. i dont care if a boy calls or not
5. i actually love myself
6. i realized i can have fun without bein afraid to
7. i no longer wanna kill myself aka drive into a tREE (thats good rite?)
i dunnoo .. things have been really good + calm lately.. i look back now n im like wow what was i on to have been the way i was .. like really why did i ever think the way i was , was normal ..so my life is better now but i cudnt have done it without the ppl around me ..thanks for everythinn<3! u kno im always here for youssss .. esp wen ur dealin with stupid h0ess aka psycho exgfs lol steph/judy.. its aritee - no one compares to uS, no one can replace us or nethin like that it just cant be done.
kk, finally goin to bed.. good nite l0ves xOxo
new years eve/new years + was great .. my parents went out & partied til 8aM haha oh mann* so i had my cousins over & surge of course .. we hung out in my basement.. drank, played po0l n watnot..yaknoo, i had like 2 drinks by midnite n i was fineee until carlo showed up & straight killed me with 2 incredibLe hulks lol so yeah i was gonee after that ..dont remember much after like 2aM .. i remember at midnite we all were callin ppl like crazyy off our cellfones lol us and the rest of the world ..anyways we took lotsaa pictures with my camera lol i put it into good use ..after bein sick for a bitt i passed out a lil before 4am ..the next mornin we woke up at like 10.. did some cleanin n then went to the diner cuz i just hadta get outta the house, then we came home, cleaned some more, got rid of stuff & went to a restaurant in newark to pick up fo0d for my parents then we came bak, ate some more lol n watched finding nemo, my big fat greek wedding & MIB II .. after that they left ..
fRiday + i hung out with shanna .. we drove around for a bit lookin for somethinn to do.. then kraus called me cuz i told him i wanted to see him so he called n told me he was goin to mikes n convinced me to go .. anyways it was like 11ish n we drove to colonia to mikes n it was a lil awkward but cool i guess.. it was me shanna kraus mike annmarie nickperez jessremo n two other guyss then rachael showed up.. nothin special, we mostly sat around lookin thru uc yearbooks while some ppl played flipcup. i wanted to play but i hadta drive so i cudnt .. blah o well..good nite, i missed nick, cuz i rarely everrr see him but i heart that kidd, hes the best =)
saturday + hMm.. tough time rememberin what i did, dunno why.. but okkkay yeah me n steph went to the mall, i got a pair of jeans, n four shirts.. yay me i finally bought somethinn lol
sunday + was officially the laziest day ever for me.. i was such a bum n did nothing ALL day lol yeah so theres nothing to tell !
yeahh really i stopped carin about shit, i used to care what ppl thought , way back when but really its not important.. i like the life i live, the way i am, fcuk what anyone else thinks.. its not my job to please the world so dont expect me to.. sounds like alot of anger but its not.. just sayinn whats on my mind, i really have learned alot the past few weeks.. sittin in traffic today on my way home from the mall i did alot of analyzin on the past two years of my life n realized how different i am in only 3 weeks of change..
1. i no longer cry
2. im happy (woo-hoo)
3. i dont stress everything
4. i dont care if a boy calls or not
5. i actually love myself
6. i realized i can have fun without bein afraid to
7. i no longer wanna kill myself aka drive into a tREE (thats good rite?)
i dunnoo .. things have been really good + calm lately.. i look back now n im like wow what was i on to have been the way i was .. like really why did i ever think the way i was , was normal ..so my life is better now but i cudnt have done it without the ppl around me ..thanks for everythinn<3! u kno im always here for youssss .. esp wen ur dealin with stupid h0ess aka psycho exgfs lol steph/judy.. its aritee - no one compares to uS, no one can replace us or nethin like that it just cant be done.
kk, finally goin to bed.. good nite l0ves xOxo