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So i put in an application for a psych technician at a hospital. It is pretty much like my second internship I had. It would be dealing day in and day out with the chronically mentally ill. I can not describe how bad i want this job!!! This is why i went into psych. I feel such a strong desire for these people. I mean people can be cruel. You know, Im chubby and im aware. It is hard to lose weight but i am still in control of that situation. These people have no control over their situatiion and its heart breaking. i cant imagine living my life and being told by society what im experiencing is an illusion. I mean it is so real to the people living it and so sad, and then most of society mock them and use their situations as humor. Its sickening. And then, working with them trying to get them better, alot of the people working with them think it is a joke as well. They get annoyed and therefore cant provide the services needed for these people. When i worked at my internship, the staff would joke about teaching the patients the correct way to kill themselves (a majority of severely mentally ill often attempt suicide, since their life is hellish). it made me sick. I reported it even. I really want this job because i feel that one of my strengths is the fact that i can be very loving, and a good listener. And you know, thats all alot of people want. I know the last year, i havent always had that part of my personality stand out, because i was to busy fighting, or being stressed out, or talking trash about megan, but i am a good person. I have made mistakes as has any person, but i try to recognize them and become better from that. I really think i can make a difference with this population of people and so I pray to God to please please please give me the opportunity, because i will try my hardest to do good for them!