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i feel so lonely and scared all the time lately. i dont even know what i want anymore, my life is so pathetic is disgusts me. i hate school. i got a job but i hate that too and want to quit, but need the money so its not practical to do so regardless of the circumstance. i never go out, i feel like im loosing friends instead of making them. and its like when i really just need my mum she doesnt have time for me plus im too far away from everything/one i care about. i cant sleep. i barely eat. i hate this all so much. so here i am crying again and theres nothing to do about it, no one to go to to make ti better and i cant fix it myself. i feel like a little kid whos been dumped out into the middle of nyc alone. and thats def not a great feeling. i just want to be happy with my life. and i cnat cuz there are too many things dragging me down. fuck. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
annd i have class again in an hour, yippee..
annd i have class again in an hour, yippee..