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Why am I so easily hurt? I wish I could face the people who hurt me (or trying to) and look them in the eyes, while saying, 'Idon't care', all the while I'm caring. I just don't want them to know. Why is it, that in my mind, it works out perfectly, but when it comes to a situation I could use some courage and tell them so, I can't find it?
The only thing I actually can do, is, I'm hurting them back, sometimes even worse than what they did to me. But that only shows them how much I care.
And if you like the people who are hurting you... I think, that's the worst. For me, at least. If those people hurt you, make you feel small and useless, in front of other people... That's when one of my favourite sayings comes in use: I'm rather laughing than crying. That's what I do. Either I hurt them back (but it's not like me to do that in front of others. I'm not like that...) or I'm just laughing about them. Or at them. Anyway. It's really pathetic if you still like them, even if they hurt you on a regular basis. Isn't it?
I want to be able to say them in the face: 'I don't care what you think.' and then turn around and walk away. Without a glance back at them.
If I only could......
The only thing I actually can do, is, I'm hurting them back, sometimes even worse than what they did to me. But that only shows them how much I care.
And if you like the people who are hurting you... I think, that's the worst. For me, at least. If those people hurt you, make you feel small and useless, in front of other people... That's when one of my favourite sayings comes in use: I'm rather laughing than crying. That's what I do. Either I hurt them back (but it's not like me to do that in front of others. I'm not like that...) or I'm just laughing about them. Or at them. Anyway. It's really pathetic if you still like them, even if they hurt you on a regular basis. Isn't it?
I want to be able to say them in the face: 'I don't care what you think.' and then turn around and walk away. Without a glance back at them.
If I only could......