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I'm sad. Eric is gone and I feel lonely. I can't wait for him to get back. It's going to be so horrible when he leaves for 10 months in 2015 for deployment to Washington. Luckily he doesn't deploy over seas. I can't imagine how it must feel for women whose husbands go to war. I hope that never happens for Eric. It's hard enough having him gone let alone if he were a in a war zone. It sucks! I miss him so much he's only my other half & best friend. It's just depressing being alone. I have Harley and Bentley but that's it. I don't hang out with anyone anymore its social depression. Idk I've sort of learned to cope with that reality... I just don't have it in me, to beg for people to be my friend anymore. I shouldn't have to. I've pretty much given up on friendships these days. It's sad but its the reality of the situation. It just hurts my feelings too much to try anymore. And my family isn't much for spending time with me either minus the exception of my brother. I just feel lonely. I don't know this whole post is depressing me more.. So ill just go to bed ughhhh