If I Ruled The World..Imagine That.
Long time no see?! It seems like a lot has happened the past couple of weeks, but then again, nothing really has happened, its the same thing over and over again. I need some excitement in my life kind of, i mean i just basically do the same thing everyday with the same people, maybe some different one here and there, but usually its the same ones.
I fucked up royaly, well at least my in eyes i did and im pretty sure in my dads eyes, he doesnt know yet, that i fucked up the rest of my life. So heres the scoup, Michigan motherfucking State University, i applied there in like late september early october, didnt hear shit from them til like about three weeks ago, give or take a few, they said that my ACTs sucked but my grades were fine and that they needed my 7th semester grades just so they can accept me or not, so basically grade probation. Well come to find out, i thought i was doing actually pretty good in my 2nd hour but im gonna be getting a D+ for a fucking grade. A 69.5, can Mr. Vincent not round it up .3 points so i can at least get a C-. Ass, and i failed his exam big time too, lets just say its under a 50 percent. I obviously dont get website development and i obviously could give two shits about the class, im out of it now, thank god. Im just trying to find the right moment to break to my dad that im a fuck up. I just hope i get into Western and i still have to get my GVSU in. SO MUCH SHIT SO LITTLE TIME!!
Now whats so bad about 'showing interest' in someone thats a different, i see nothing wrong with it, but a lot of people do. Just because i have different views on how i see people, i see people for the person they are, not their color, race, relgion whatever else there is, i dont care. If i like the person and they are good to me and nice, then why not be their friend or significant other. Im just really confused right now, i want it, actually kind of bad. But i dont know what to do, do i go for it and fuck what others think about me and i know people are talking behind my back, im not stupid. Another way i know it is because a couple of people have asked me. Anyways..my mind is in such a mess with so many emotions and thoughts, i cant even think straight, like i sit there and try and think about something and nothing happens, just everything in my head is zooming around and i am unable to grab it and actually make sense out of and of it. I gotta go have a smoke...and get ready to go shopping, again.
I fucked up royaly, well at least my in eyes i did and im pretty sure in my dads eyes, he doesnt know yet, that i fucked up the rest of my life. So heres the scoup, Michigan motherfucking State University, i applied there in like late september early october, didnt hear shit from them til like about three weeks ago, give or take a few, they said that my ACTs sucked but my grades were fine and that they needed my 7th semester grades just so they can accept me or not, so basically grade probation. Well come to find out, i thought i was doing actually pretty good in my 2nd hour but im gonna be getting a D+ for a fucking grade. A 69.5, can Mr. Vincent not round it up .3 points so i can at least get a C-. Ass, and i failed his exam big time too, lets just say its under a 50 percent. I obviously dont get website development and i obviously could give two shits about the class, im out of it now, thank god. Im just trying to find the right moment to break to my dad that im a fuck up. I just hope i get into Western and i still have to get my GVSU in. SO MUCH SHIT SO LITTLE TIME!!
Now whats so bad about 'showing interest' in someone thats a different, i see nothing wrong with it, but a lot of people do. Just because i have different views on how i see people, i see people for the person they are, not their color, race, relgion whatever else there is, i dont care. If i like the person and they are good to me and nice, then why not be their friend or significant other. Im just really confused right now, i want it, actually kind of bad. But i dont know what to do, do i go for it and fuck what others think about me and i know people are talking behind my back, im not stupid. Another way i know it is because a couple of people have asked me. Anyways..my mind is in such a mess with so many emotions and thoughts, i cant even think straight, like i sit there and try and think about something and nothing happens, just everything in my head is zooming around and i am unable to grab it and actually make sense out of and of it. I gotta go have a smoke...and get ready to go shopping, again.