To Resist is to Piss In the Wind....
Last night my aunt called and i havent talked to her in a while. Its my dad's sister, and they have never really gotten along, but ever since my parents got divorced they seem to be, which is good, i could never imagine my siblings and i being adults and not talking to one another. Like her and my dad never fought, its just that my dad never really liked her and for the past year or so hes just gotten mature about it and now hes warmed up to her.
Anyways, the point of all that, we arent a close family, we usually only see eachother on major holidays and even then, its my immediate family that stays within our little group, we arent close to our family. We were always the outsiders and still kind of are, but my dad wasnt home last night so i ended up talking to her for a good 15 minutes, and we actually had a heart to heart sorta. She asked how school was going and i said it was going decent, i mean its school it cant be wonderful, and that a group of us went through something very dramatic and its still somewhat hard for us. I guess she had found out but either my dad or my mom talking with her about Joel and she asked me about it. Then she told me that when my cousin Katie was in 7th grade, she had a class mate shoot himself in the head. After i heard that it got me thinking about a bunch of stuff, wondering why people do the things they do, we will never find out really the real reason why Joel died, or why this kid felt the need to blow his head off. Is there something in there head that just triggers something and makes them do something that they really dont wanna do, but they feel is right at the moment in time, or is it fate, were they not suppose to live past a certain age?! After my aunt and i were done talking about that and my grandpa and stuff, cuz tomorrow is his bday and she was reminding my dad and i about that and how he is getting hip surgery the 18th, i felt like we bonded on a different level...i think that was seriously the longest and heartfelt conversation i have ever had with another family memeber other than my immediate family, which felt kinda good because im not close with my family at all. It was good.
...anyone who does will end up smelling.
Anyways, the point of all that, we arent a close family, we usually only see eachother on major holidays and even then, its my immediate family that stays within our little group, we arent close to our family. We were always the outsiders and still kind of are, but my dad wasnt home last night so i ended up talking to her for a good 15 minutes, and we actually had a heart to heart sorta. She asked how school was going and i said it was going decent, i mean its school it cant be wonderful, and that a group of us went through something very dramatic and its still somewhat hard for us. I guess she had found out but either my dad or my mom talking with her about Joel and she asked me about it. Then she told me that when my cousin Katie was in 7th grade, she had a class mate shoot himself in the head. After i heard that it got me thinking about a bunch of stuff, wondering why people do the things they do, we will never find out really the real reason why Joel died, or why this kid felt the need to blow his head off. Is there something in there head that just triggers something and makes them do something that they really dont wanna do, but they feel is right at the moment in time, or is it fate, were they not suppose to live past a certain age?! After my aunt and i were done talking about that and my grandpa and stuff, cuz tomorrow is his bday and she was reminding my dad and i about that and how he is getting hip surgery the 18th, i felt like we bonded on a different level...i think that was seriously the longest and heartfelt conversation i have ever had with another family memeber other than my immediate family, which felt kinda good because im not close with my family at all. It was good.
...anyone who does will end up smelling.