You're probably better off not reading this
'Cause it's mostly me grousing... *sigh*
I don't know why I am feeling kind of depressed lately. I mean, my father has surgery Thursday for kidney stones, but it's a routine procedure. Still, I'm a bit worried. But I've been kind of lonely, I guess. I know I have a different school schedule than everyone else, but for some stupid, ultimately selfish, reason I feel lonely when my friend's can't talk and then I start questioning whether people like me and whether I am a good friend and merde like that. It's not like I don't have friends, and I keep telling myself that whenever I see my friend count on Facebook or whatever (at least 60, and I know pretty much all of them). I don't want to become cynical again, like I was for a few years, and I don't want to go into the depression I had 5 years ago. Hell, as of my birthday (May 15th), it will have been 5 6 years since I realized something was wrong. Of course, maybe it has something to do with not taking my medicine in a few months. But I never noticed much after awhile. I guess I can try that again. I'd say it can't hurt, but considering there's black box warnings on the drugs...
I don't think -I hope, anyway- I'm going to get super, suicidal, depressed. I like my life too much to do that. Besides, I haven't written my novels or anything yet! Compared to some, my life's heaven! :P I guess I should just remember what I have to be grateful for, even though sometimes it's hard to make that stick in my mind when I feel down.
Anyway, I'm back at home now (I was running some errands with Daddy earlier), and I feel a little better after talking with him. I lurv my Avi ♥. After thinking about it, I think I'll try taking my medicine again, both to make sure I don't go into depression and also to see if it helps me get motivated again (one of the symptoms of depression is lack of motivation).
For those of you who actually read this, thanks for sitting through my merping. I guess one reason depression and stress affect teens and young adults so much is, generally speaking, we have nothing to compare our situation with, experience wise. We can't look back at an earlier time easily and say "this situation's not bad compared to this" and we don't have the wisdom to come to that conclusion easily either.
I guess it's just a phase of growing up.
And because I feel like it, I want to say "I love you guys" to all my friends! ♥ *hugs*
Speaking of which, does anyone here have a facebook?
That's all for now, since I need to work on schoolwork... *strangles school papers* Maybe I'll get some writing in...
Luv luv,
GxS
I don't know why I am feeling kind of depressed lately. I mean, my father has surgery Thursday for kidney stones, but it's a routine procedure. Still, I'm a bit worried. But I've been kind of lonely, I guess. I know I have a different school schedule than everyone else, but for some stupid, ultimately selfish, reason I feel lonely when my friend's can't talk and then I start questioning whether people like me and whether I am a good friend and merde like that. It's not like I don't have friends, and I keep telling myself that whenever I see my friend count on Facebook or whatever (at least 60, and I know pretty much all of them). I don't want to become cynical again, like I was for a few years, and I don't want to go into the depression I had 5 years ago. Hell, as of my birthday (May 15th), it will have been 5 6 years since I realized something was wrong. Of course, maybe it has something to do with not taking my medicine in a few months. But I never noticed much after awhile. I guess I can try that again. I'd say it can't hurt, but considering there's black box warnings on the drugs...
I don't think -I hope, anyway- I'm going to get super, suicidal, depressed. I like my life too much to do that. Besides, I haven't written my novels or anything yet! Compared to some, my life's heaven! :P I guess I should just remember what I have to be grateful for, even though sometimes it's hard to make that stick in my mind when I feel down.
Anyway, I'm back at home now (I was running some errands with Daddy earlier), and I feel a little better after talking with him. I lurv my Avi ♥. After thinking about it, I think I'll try taking my medicine again, both to make sure I don't go into depression and also to see if it helps me get motivated again (one of the symptoms of depression is lack of motivation).
For those of you who actually read this, thanks for sitting through my merping. I guess one reason depression and stress affect teens and young adults so much is, generally speaking, we have nothing to compare our situation with, experience wise. We can't look back at an earlier time easily and say "this situation's not bad compared to this" and we don't have the wisdom to come to that conclusion easily either.
I guess it's just a phase of growing up.
And because I feel like it, I want to say "I love you guys" to all my friends! ♥ *hugs*
Speaking of which, does anyone here have a facebook?
That's all for now, since I need to work on schoolwork... *strangles school papers* Maybe I'll get some writing in...
Luv luv,
GxS