Loving you, is the hardest thing I will ever do.
A lot has happened lately. Just in life in general. So I did hang out with Alex for awhile and there was a possiblity there, but then the right girl for him got him back. You know I am always here gurl. Love ya lots. But then I dont know I went and hung out with Kurtis, Andrew, Shadlan, Carl, Ronnie and Katie last night at the tennis courts and well once again things happened between me and Carl. I dont know what to do. I know I shouldnt wait, but something it telling me its going to be worth it in the end and that I need to hang out. Even though it kills me to sit back and let things just happen. I dont want to wait forever, but for now I know I couldnt hook up with someone even if I wanted to. Its still way to early for me. I cant handle it at all. I love the kid so flippin much that I could wait a life time. I know I dont need that and that I am only a junior but feelings come and its either they are suppose to stay or they are suppose to go. I just dont understand why things have to happen and yet we cant get an explanation for it. I know a lot of my friends are probably wondering why I am doing this, but deep down I know you all understand. I dont want to get hurt again I really dont, I know I am potentially setting myself up for it, but its a risk I am willing to take I guess.
Anyways~ SO volleyball wow, today was a complete mess...nothing went right at all. But yea I better go to bed or I am not getting up in the morning. Love you all late.
Anyways~ SO volleyball wow, today was a complete mess...nothing went right at all. But yea I better go to bed or I am not getting up in the morning. Love you all late.