I don't think it will ever get better...
So I posted the other day about Chris... since then shit has gotten worse. He is now threatening to take her from daycare or show up at my mom's or my place and kick down the door to take her. He's still refusing to pay any child support but expects to be able to see her.
He threatened me on Sunday night after I got home from a great weekend with Morgan and his family. I was actually scared to be at my place for a little while. I asked Morgan to come over and be with me but he really didn't want to. He came anyway but it took him over an hour to get to my place because he fell back to sleep.
So while he was there he told me that he knew that this coming year is going to be difficult for me but he didn't think he wanted to be with me and go through all of it with me. He wanted to ask me to go through it by myself. I told him that I need him to support me emotionally but if he didn't want to be with me to let me know now because I don't want to have to deal with being dumped while shit is getting bad with Chris. He told me he wanted to take another break to figure it out if he wants to be with me but I said I wasn't gonna go through another break. I can't take it.
So as of right now we're still together but I dont know if we're even gonna last through Christmas...
A week ago he was telling me he wanted to have a future with me and a house and all this stuff and then last night he said this... word for word. " Chrissy, I know that you would do anything for me and I know why. It's because of how you feel about me. But I can't return that because I don't feel like that about you. I'm not ready to love anyone and I don't know if or when i will."
I dont know what to do..
fuck.. everything sucks...
-Chrissy
He threatened me on Sunday night after I got home from a great weekend with Morgan and his family. I was actually scared to be at my place for a little while. I asked Morgan to come over and be with me but he really didn't want to. He came anyway but it took him over an hour to get to my place because he fell back to sleep.
So while he was there he told me that he knew that this coming year is going to be difficult for me but he didn't think he wanted to be with me and go through all of it with me. He wanted to ask me to go through it by myself. I told him that I need him to support me emotionally but if he didn't want to be with me to let me know now because I don't want to have to deal with being dumped while shit is getting bad with Chris. He told me he wanted to take another break to figure it out if he wants to be with me but I said I wasn't gonna go through another break. I can't take it.
So as of right now we're still together but I dont know if we're even gonna last through Christmas...
A week ago he was telling me he wanted to have a future with me and a house and all this stuff and then last night he said this... word for word. " Chrissy, I know that you would do anything for me and I know why. It's because of how you feel about me. But I can't return that because I don't feel like that about you. I'm not ready to love anyone and I don't know if or when i will."
I dont know what to do..
fuck.. everything sucks...
-Chrissy