meh- unemployment is making me insane!!!!
so i'm bored out of my mind right about now. this is week 3 of unemloyment and i hate it sooo much! i feel so useless. i still have a lot that can be done, but i could use extra cash and i am much more productive when i am busy. i wanted to take the autism class at ccsu, but never registered cause i figured i'd have a job ad wouldn't be able to take the time off, and by the time i realized i didn't have a job it was too late and i can't take it. fuckin a. on a good note, i got my praxis scores and passed everything (*yay!!*) so at least i can take more classes next semester, so now on my "to do list" is making sure i have the rest of the crap together. i think i really should have gotten that referral not from amber, but it will work out-- i hope.
saturday i had a little gathering at my house which was fun. my friend tina from hawaii that i met in south carolina but now lives in virginia but is visiting family in new york, came over too. i haven't seen her in like 10 years, but she found me on myspace and just happens to be around here, so we're hanging out. good stuff. so we had fun, drank a bit, ate some good food and just bs-ed the nite away. maria and miro ended up staying til nearly 5am! jon has since told me a million times that we should hang out with them more, lol.
saturday i started freaking out thinking no one was going to come (i was pms-ing a lil) and got all depressed because most of my friends are in boston and stuff, but people came and i realized (with a little encouragement from jon) that i still have a lot of friends out here, i just need to hang out with different people more. i know this but it's part that i feel like my life is at a standstill and everyone else is moving on... well shit happens what are ya gonna do... i have school to finish before i can do anything, so until my next step can begin i just have to focus on what and who i have left here and go see everyone else when i can. i mean, nikkie and krazy jen came over (my fellow bison bitches) and that was cool cause they are new people who live in the area who are fun and i'd love to chill with, so i just have to make the best of it all.
it's not that i don't love my friends here as much as i love those who are away, i just miss the ones that are in places better than ct, and i want to be elsewhere too. life goes on, and things happen for a reason (i think, hope, don't really know) so i just have to take things one day at a time...
saturday i had a little gathering at my house which was fun. my friend tina from hawaii that i met in south carolina but now lives in virginia but is visiting family in new york, came over too. i haven't seen her in like 10 years, but she found me on myspace and just happens to be around here, so we're hanging out. good stuff. so we had fun, drank a bit, ate some good food and just bs-ed the nite away. maria and miro ended up staying til nearly 5am! jon has since told me a million times that we should hang out with them more, lol.
saturday i started freaking out thinking no one was going to come (i was pms-ing a lil) and got all depressed because most of my friends are in boston and stuff, but people came and i realized (with a little encouragement from jon) that i still have a lot of friends out here, i just need to hang out with different people more. i know this but it's part that i feel like my life is at a standstill and everyone else is moving on... well shit happens what are ya gonna do... i have school to finish before i can do anything, so until my next step can begin i just have to focus on what and who i have left here and go see everyone else when i can. i mean, nikkie and krazy jen came over (my fellow bison bitches) and that was cool cause they are new people who live in the area who are fun and i'd love to chill with, so i just have to make the best of it all.
it's not that i don't love my friends here as much as i love those who are away, i just miss the ones that are in places better than ct, and i want to be elsewhere too. life goes on, and things happen for a reason (i think, hope, don't really know) so i just have to take things one day at a time...