"If ya ain't got it in ya, ya can't blow it out!" -- Louis Armstrong
Oh, the subject? :) Josh was searching music quotes last night and came across that one. We thought it was really funny because the jazz-playing alligator in "The Princess and the Frog" is named Louis, too.
Anyway, I hope everyone who still reads this is doing well. Once again, my body woke me up a little sooner than planned, so I thought I would give this here blog a little update.
I'm finished with overnight rehearsals. The cast preview was a lot of fun. I wish I could have seen more people, but the cheers and support were equally wonderful. It's so much fun to get that extra support. It's just what you need to keep on going. Tonight is the first Xmas party...the real debut, if you will. Nervous? Of course. Excited? Yeah. Slightly more nervous at this point, though, because my stomach and I aren't getting along this morning.
Life after training is interesting. I've been working mostly nights since September. I kind of miss working full days. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy sleeping in. But most everyone I know is working days, too, so I really don't have a reason to get up in the morning. I kind of let myself sleep until the late morning, then leisurely roll out of bed and putz around the house. TV, internet, cross stitch, a meal in a few hours, errands if necessary. And then when everyone at my place is coming home, I'm heading out. It's kind of depressing to be home alone all day a few days a week. I guess if you enjoy having time to yourself, it's not bad. Not that I don't enjoy some quality Nikki time. But sometimes, it's just nice to have someone else around.
And the weird thing is that it makes my days off even more awkward. Normally, my day off was when I got to relax and enjoy myself. But that's not any different than a party day. And on party days, I'm not really a fan of going to the parks because I want to conserve my energy for later. But the last few days have been nice. On days when I don't work parties, I get to spend time out with friends or just relaxing at home. Last night, Jenna, Josh and I made dinner and then sat through a movie and Dancing with the Stars.
Y'know what's weird? Josh and his mom are leaving Saturday for their cruise and they'll be gone a week. And while I know I'll miss him, I just realized it's not going to be much different than now. Because by the time I wake up, he's already on his way to work. And then when he gets home, I'm on my way. And when I get home, he's in bed. So, maybe I won't notice the change as much. And I have a few distractions in the works. I have a workshop on my night off, a slumber party for the other free night, and Rob's parents will be in town and they want me to visit with them. Also, Rob's heading home the week of Thanksgiving, so I'll have time to see him before he leaves.
I don't know...I just kind of feel like I'm up the creek without a paddle. Every time I write here, I think more and more about a lot of the posts I have written. And I start wondering if I was a happier, more optimistic person before Disney. Because even though my senior year in college was a little bit of a train wreck on my emotional stability, I feel like I'm more prone to getting upset down in Florida...which is especially weird when I think about the number of friends from Ohio I still talk to.
Again, I don't know.
On another note, Margaret and I are in the process of planning out Christmas decorations for the apartment. She's getting us a tree and then we're going to decorate it. I want to incorporate garland into the apartment somewhere, but I haven't decided where. And we're thinking about those little battery candles for the windows. Also, Jenna's going to be putting her menorah somewhere in the apartment, which I think will be really fun. I don't have very many friends who don't celebrate Christmas, so I'm excited to learn about her traditions...and I can't wait to help her be a part of ours.
I think I'm going to write again...see if I can get out some of these confused emotions. I can't wait until my computer is restored so I can have my old music and poems back.
Much love to all!
~ Nikki
Anyway, I hope everyone who still reads this is doing well. Once again, my body woke me up a little sooner than planned, so I thought I would give this here blog a little update.
I'm finished with overnight rehearsals. The cast preview was a lot of fun. I wish I could have seen more people, but the cheers and support were equally wonderful. It's so much fun to get that extra support. It's just what you need to keep on going. Tonight is the first Xmas party...the real debut, if you will. Nervous? Of course. Excited? Yeah. Slightly more nervous at this point, though, because my stomach and I aren't getting along this morning.
Life after training is interesting. I've been working mostly nights since September. I kind of miss working full days. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy sleeping in. But most everyone I know is working days, too, so I really don't have a reason to get up in the morning. I kind of let myself sleep until the late morning, then leisurely roll out of bed and putz around the house. TV, internet, cross stitch, a meal in a few hours, errands if necessary. And then when everyone at my place is coming home, I'm heading out. It's kind of depressing to be home alone all day a few days a week. I guess if you enjoy having time to yourself, it's not bad. Not that I don't enjoy some quality Nikki time. But sometimes, it's just nice to have someone else around.
And the weird thing is that it makes my days off even more awkward. Normally, my day off was when I got to relax and enjoy myself. But that's not any different than a party day. And on party days, I'm not really a fan of going to the parks because I want to conserve my energy for later. But the last few days have been nice. On days when I don't work parties, I get to spend time out with friends or just relaxing at home. Last night, Jenna, Josh and I made dinner and then sat through a movie and Dancing with the Stars.
Y'know what's weird? Josh and his mom are leaving Saturday for their cruise and they'll be gone a week. And while I know I'll miss him, I just realized it's not going to be much different than now. Because by the time I wake up, he's already on his way to work. And then when he gets home, I'm on my way. And when I get home, he's in bed. So, maybe I won't notice the change as much. And I have a few distractions in the works. I have a workshop on my night off, a slumber party for the other free night, and Rob's parents will be in town and they want me to visit with them. Also, Rob's heading home the week of Thanksgiving, so I'll have time to see him before he leaves.
I don't know...I just kind of feel like I'm up the creek without a paddle. Every time I write here, I think more and more about a lot of the posts I have written. And I start wondering if I was a happier, more optimistic person before Disney. Because even though my senior year in college was a little bit of a train wreck on my emotional stability, I feel like I'm more prone to getting upset down in Florida...which is especially weird when I think about the number of friends from Ohio I still talk to.
Again, I don't know.
On another note, Margaret and I are in the process of planning out Christmas decorations for the apartment. She's getting us a tree and then we're going to decorate it. I want to incorporate garland into the apartment somewhere, but I haven't decided where. And we're thinking about those little battery candles for the windows. Also, Jenna's going to be putting her menorah somewhere in the apartment, which I think will be really fun. I don't have very many friends who don't celebrate Christmas, so I'm excited to learn about her traditions...and I can't wait to help her be a part of ours.
I think I'm going to write again...see if I can get out some of these confused emotions. I can't wait until my computer is restored so I can have my old music and poems back.
Much love to all!
~ Nikki