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I have so many emotions running through me right now and I just dont know where to start to make it better, Lately, me and Amy have been having conversations about things and it's been great bc she's given me advice with everything. I just wish i had so much faith like she did. I need to realize that my life isnt totally over and that i can move on and get my life together and get over bill and still be happy. it wasn't meant to be- i can see that now...and i believe it in my heart too.. I didnt know bill that long but being with him for a little still makes me want to try to be his friend.. Amy and i talked about Michael to. i realize that i can never move on with my life with out him in it some how cuz we been friends for a long time and that is meant to be like that. i know i fucked that up by goin out with him but then again i am happy that i did.. i dont care how hard its goin to be in life i am goin to have Michael in it some how some way... i just dont know what to do with him cuz one min he is all lovin and the next he dont want me to know how he feels. i just wish he will tell me how he feels about me.. then maybe i will understand him. thanks for Amy she helped me out alot if it wasnt for her i would go crazy. haha. all tho she dont even know what the fuck is goin on. but we are both tryin.. oh yeah im not movin with brain not when i have a lot here.... well that is it for now i will write again soon