I'm waiting for blood to flow to my fingers....
Yeah so even though a lot has happened this past week, none of it seems important. I mean, i know it's important but i really can't be excited about stuff when all I can think about is my Grandpa lying in a hospital bed and me being 100 miles away not being able to see him. I just feel so bad, I don't know what to do, or even what to think. He was doing better when I saw him for the first time on Sunday, but now I don't know. All I can do is pray for the best. It was hard being in that room with my grandma, I know this is really hard for her and she has trouble understanding, so I was doing my best to keep the conversation light. I don't think I would be able to handle it if she got upset, and I definitely don't want to get upset around her. I was really happy to see my grandpa though, even if it was under the conditions that it was. I really missed him and was glad to talk to him about stuff. He couldn't talk too much because of the oxygen mask, but I know he was listening. I know he loves when people come to see him because he wants to know how everyone is doing and what is going on in their lives....i just wish I could see him more often. That's all i can really say right now. I'm just going to pray for him.