i'm just a teenage dirt bag baby
i'm such a fucking fuck up! jesus i can't do anything right. friendships, relationships, school, sports. Lets just face facts, i suck at them all. i'm not a good friend. i'm not smart and i'm not athletic. i fuck everything up. my dad hates me and just when things are starting to go right i make a decision that was wrong. i'm not telling any one anything any more. its like i'm dead. i'm so lost. i don't want to go to school anymore. why am i always so sad? even when things are going right i'm sad and even though i know i have plenty of friends that care i am still always so damn alone. WHY? i don't like feeling this way but its all i've ever known. i don't know what its like to be really happy and i'm afraid of what its like. i dunno what to do. i just don't want to feel alone any more.