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as of right now it feels like its the only way out... i just can't take it anymore. I'm tired of hurting, i'm tired of being lonely, and i'm tired of being so god damn sad all the time. i just want to give up. Ya know, just end it. I mean its too hard to go from one day to the next pretending that you're happy when you know that deep down inside you aren't and that you haven't been for a long long time. I went into my sophmore year wanting to learn, but now i'm too depressed to even think about doing my homework. I don't even want to do crew anymore, and that really scares me. I mean its crew, i love crew. what happened? I don't wanna know what i'm going to do, and i'm really scared that it might be something that i will regret, and i'll land right back in Rockford. again. damn.... this sucks.