cRaZiNeSs... GrEaT cRaZiNeSs
So, let me update you with the things that have happened. Last i wrote was 2nd block. 3rd block sucked only because i didn't wanna sit there thru band... lunch- ah... 4th i had study skills and study hall. Study Hall is so boring. Especially because there's hardly anyone i know in there. Except this Aaron kid that is soOoO obnoxious. But, he is funny at the same time. haha. 5th- i had graphics with sam. Always fun... He drew a smiley face on my band-aid that was on my arm [bc of the pen thing]. But, yea, he made me really happy and got my mind off the whole andrew situation.
I got home, and i checked my mail. Andrew had e-mailed me back from the e-mail i sent to him. I told him everything that was bothering me before in that e-mail. He explained it all in the one he sent to me. I called him and we sorted everything out. Things always seem weird right after we fight n shizzle. Well, not even fight- we like have little charades. But, i'm glad that everything is sorted out. I can't lose him. He means the world to me. He's my better half. Now, i know for a fact that katie's not an issue with all of this. I mean, andrew even said that she's probably going to get a boyfriend... so, yea. I'm happy. By the time i had to get off the phone with andrew, we were really good. he was like, "kelly?" i said, "yea?" and he said, "i love you..." and i said, "i love you, too" plus he kept saying that he really wants to see me. Which i know what it feels like cause i realllllllly wanna see him, too. It's been too long. Too long without giving him a hug n being held in those arms...I'm laying it flat out right now, though. I am not going to get mad at him unless it's over something that is REALLY worth getting mad over. But, that'll be really hard to do... i know that now.
Besides the boyfriend stuff, school's been going well. I've been sitting here doing economics test corrections. This means my score on the test goes wayyy up. hehe. Stuff with friends are going really well. I've just learned to let things go that bug me. Me getting mad over stuff or getting upset over something is just gunna torture me. Why torture myself? life's too short to be doing that. I love how i used to be. When i was liking Ryan my second year- i was in such good moods. I was such a life lover. Then, i went through that whole depression phase and now i am trying to overcome it. It's like some of me is over it and some of me is just coming back with the attitude toward people. I don't want that anymore. So, i guess all i can do is to do something about it. I think i'm just gunna try to remember how i used to be and maybe i'll just start to be that person again... hm. well, anyway- im a little tired plus my boy just signed on... so i am gunna get goin'...
<3 Kelly