Long entry
I hate not being able to access the internet. >:[ Especially when I’ve been wanting to get on it for days and my computer has not worked in a week. So I’m back from Dallas and it was a lot of fun, but I wish my body wasn’t so sensitive to EVERYTHING because it makes it really hard to enjoy vacations. At this moment I am sunburned, chapped, covered in mosquito bites and bruises, and am all around bitchy due to my aggravation with my body. When I first started taking my pill I wasn’t doing a good job of taking my pill at the same hour everyday and felt bad so now I do it religiously and I think it’s helping. I still have daily cramps, but I don’t feel nauseous or headachy anymore. My appetite has been very crazy, though. Like my last day in Dallas I ate SO much food and then yesterday and today I barely ate anything. I hope all the weight fluctuations don’t mess up my body even more. I’m still having spotting, but that’s normal, just like the appetite change, so I’m trying not to worry, something that’s always a hard task for me. After reading the pamphlet 3 times I should be ready for anything average that could happen to me. I just found five of all my old medications which expired in the 90’s and finally threw them away. It made me feel extra determined to make this one work for me when nothing else ever does. I always give up, and most likely too soon to judge, so I’m attempting to change that part of me.
Anyway, I’ve added a bunch more to my book and will be sending a mass email out soon. I have many questions about things I don’t remember so feel free to correct me. Some of these events I didn’t even witness.
Can I just say that work was a somewhat enjoyable escape before MO came along. Now I dread going even when my boss isn’t going to be there because he works the same hours as me, meaning I will see him everyday and he will force me to listen to him ramble for at least an hour, in which I will sit or stand and nod my head. Today I tried to hide from him in the back with my book, but it doesn’t matter whether I’m reading, writing, or working, he will follow me everywhere and bleed from one topic to the next. I can’t understand half of what he says, partly because of his English and partly because he always talks to me about his other businesses and money. I have to hear enough about money from Kyler, seriously, I hate talking about it, who cares? I hate when people tell me things like “oh, I spent __ on my car” or “she had a diamond that was worth __”. What do they want from me, a medal? SHUT UP!
Ok, I think I’m done ranting now, phew. From reading this you’d think I’m in a really bad mood right now, but I’m totally not, just annoyed that I’m typing this up on Word only to post it later when the internet works. I’m working out and swimming again, which makes me feel loads better. Now that Kyler can swim laps I actually get exercise going to the pool with him. He could probably go running with me, too, honestly. I just like to use that time to escape his little voice and be by myself. I think the summer is going to look up now. I feel productive in my life and things have been really great with Jonathan. He’s one of the best friends I’ve ever had and it seems like nothing will change that. Talking to him always cheers me up and seeing him relaxes me because I feel safe and at home. Oh THANK GOD Kevin is fixing my comp. I never thought the sight of him would make me so happy.
Anyway, I’ve added a bunch more to my book and will be sending a mass email out soon. I have many questions about things I don’t remember so feel free to correct me. Some of these events I didn’t even witness.
Can I just say that work was a somewhat enjoyable escape before MO came along. Now I dread going even when my boss isn’t going to be there because he works the same hours as me, meaning I will see him everyday and he will force me to listen to him ramble for at least an hour, in which I will sit or stand and nod my head. Today I tried to hide from him in the back with my book, but it doesn’t matter whether I’m reading, writing, or working, he will follow me everywhere and bleed from one topic to the next. I can’t understand half of what he says, partly because of his English and partly because he always talks to me about his other businesses and money. I have to hear enough about money from Kyler, seriously, I hate talking about it, who cares? I hate when people tell me things like “oh, I spent __ on my car” or “she had a diamond that was worth __”. What do they want from me, a medal? SHUT UP!
Ok, I think I’m done ranting now, phew. From reading this you’d think I’m in a really bad mood right now, but I’m totally not, just annoyed that I’m typing this up on Word only to post it later when the internet works. I’m working out and swimming again, which makes me feel loads better. Now that Kyler can swim laps I actually get exercise going to the pool with him. He could probably go running with me, too, honestly. I just like to use that time to escape his little voice and be by myself. I think the summer is going to look up now. I feel productive in my life and things have been really great with Jonathan. He’s one of the best friends I’ve ever had and it seems like nothing will change that. Talking to him always cheers me up and seeing him relaxes me because I feel safe and at home. Oh THANK GOD Kevin is fixing my comp. I never thought the sight of him would make me so happy.