It's been awhile
It's almost like I'm in a dream as I sit on the outside and watch as everything happens. I watch as I change into this person who i don't even know. And all the while i'm still on the outside, Watching ever fault i make, Watching everyone that i hurt as they walk away from me. I listin to my best friend tell me more and more things i don't want to hear about myself, more and more things i assured myself i wouldn't become. This made me cry, hearing the tone in her voice as she tells me the things i never wanted to here,expecilly from her.I turn my head trying to aviod it.It was only a matter of time before reality would hit and i would have to look it in the eye.
Rochelle pointed out to me that i was more quick to try and fix mine and nic's relationship then i was to fix mine and lindsey's relationship.I knew somewhere in the back of my head that me and nic would never be friends again but i still tryed to fix it. It doesn't make sence to me. I was friends with Lindsey longer then i ever had a relationship with nic. Lindsey was better to me but i still tryed with nic. I guess now everything is much harder with me and lindsey. I shouldn't have pushed her aside i should have pushed him aside cuz now look whos still here for me, look who listens when i need it, look at who befriends me before i do...Lindsey.
This most likely doesn't make any sence unless you were around me when it happened. So to make a long story short, Nic and lindsey were together for a while and i didnt really like it cuz we (nic and i) were trying to get back together when they were getting together. It's ok though cuz last time this happened i made a fool of myself over a stupid ass guy who wasn't worth my time in the end.I gain a good friend last time!
Val, I'm sorry for the way i acted. You are such a good friend and i wish we could have been friends before the whole nic thing happened. Thanks for forgiving me!
Rochelle pointed out to me that i was more quick to try and fix mine and nic's relationship then i was to fix mine and lindsey's relationship.I knew somewhere in the back of my head that me and nic would never be friends again but i still tryed to fix it. It doesn't make sence to me. I was friends with Lindsey longer then i ever had a relationship with nic. Lindsey was better to me but i still tryed with nic. I guess now everything is much harder with me and lindsey. I shouldn't have pushed her aside i should have pushed him aside cuz now look whos still here for me, look who listens when i need it, look at who befriends me before i do...Lindsey.
This most likely doesn't make any sence unless you were around me when it happened. So to make a long story short, Nic and lindsey were together for a while and i didnt really like it cuz we (nic and i) were trying to get back together when they were getting together. It's ok though cuz last time this happened i made a fool of myself over a stupid ass guy who wasn't worth my time in the end.I gain a good friend last time!
Val, I'm sorry for the way i acted. You are such a good friend and i wish we could have been friends before the whole nic thing happened. Thanks for forgiving me!