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wow. it's been 6 years
6 years since i've known him. 6 years that he's been one of my best friends ever. the one guy that's never really hurt me knowingly. the one guy that i know that no matter what, i can turn to him and even if he can't fix it he'll make me smile. fuck. it's incredible. i love this guy so much. and he's leaving. i woke up to a message from him saying bye. and it hit me. like i was hoping to see him before he left, even if it was at the airport. but i cant. when i heard his message this morning, even before he said anything and he just said "hey..." i started crying. i didn't think it would hurt me this much, but ugh =[ it sucks to know that i'll always be his "what if..." girl but at least that gives me hope, in some odd way. =[
i really hope he knows i'll miss him and i love him =/
"How do I say goodbye to what we had?
The good times that made us laugh
Outweigh the bad.
I thought we'd get to see forever
But forever's gone away"
6 years since i've known him. 6 years that he's been one of my best friends ever. the one guy that's never really hurt me knowingly. the one guy that i know that no matter what, i can turn to him and even if he can't fix it he'll make me smile. fuck. it's incredible. i love this guy so much. and he's leaving. i woke up to a message from him saying bye. and it hit me. like i was hoping to see him before he left, even if it was at the airport. but i cant. when i heard his message this morning, even before he said anything and he just said "hey..." i started crying. i didn't think it would hurt me this much, but ugh =[ it sucks to know that i'll always be his "what if..." girl but at least that gives me hope, in some odd way. =[
i really hope he knows i'll miss him and i love him =/
"How do I say goodbye to what we had?
The good times that made us laugh
Outweigh the bad.
I thought we'd get to see forever
But forever's gone away"