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It's been two days since he's been gone.... about 24 hours.... it seems like forever. I miss him soooo much. It's just when he left I was excited for finally peace and quiet but now that's exactly what I miss. I miss his noises and all his really nice friends that came over. I miss driving to school with him when we could bond and blast 2pac music. This guy who lives on my street drove me to school today and yesterday and it's so depressing bc some of his music I recognize or remember listening to with Russell. I remember each of those songs and what we were doing or talking about. I don't really know how to deal with this because I have never missed someone so much who was so close but so far from me. All I can do is cry and wish that he visits soon. Talking to him on the phone is just awkward and weird and I don't have the guts to tell him how much I really miss him becuase I don't know how he will react!? I miss seeing him at school and especially I miss all the seniors who are now freshman. This year hasn't started too well. I have more classes with friends but PE sucks. I have it 7th which is good bc for swimming (which is a unit in PE) I don't have to worry about putting makeup back on or fixing my hair.
I just don't know what to do anymore.... crying and letting it out is all that I know to do and of course talking to close friends about it but some just don't understand. Some just aren't going through the same thing as me. Some just don't feel the same way... so I guess I can just confess here for a while.
I just don't know what to do anymore.... crying and letting it out is all that I know to do and of course talking to close friends about it but some just don't understand. Some just aren't going through the same thing as me. Some just don't feel the same way... so I guess I can just confess here for a while.