wooo... stilll here
well my bday is fri 24th.. il be the big 21.. but im already.. big (a nice way of saying fat) and mentally id say im like... 35.. or older :/
I'm pretty frightended... I dont know whats in store.. im thinking i could just pack up and go.. but im too worried financially.
I miss my dad i want to go home and live with him and be taken care of. I dont like looking after myself and going to sleep at night without the chatter of and whoever else.
I just miss being a kid, im watching that greenday song.. the clip is good i spose.. interesting.. but doesnt seem like much of a song.
sorry the minds wondering there.
yeh.. umm.. oh.
well its funny theres so much going on in my head and im all lost for words.
I could make a huge list of the things im worried about right now.. not that it would help.. im not sure il make it anymore.. theres days where i just give up.. and its fucking horrible.. or days where i just lay there and burst into tears.. not about one thing.. about everything cos i cant vent. i spose they dont last long tho.. just a bit of release.
I'm worried about being alone i spose.
im lost
that is all
I'm pretty frightended... I dont know whats in store.. im thinking i could just pack up and go.. but im too worried financially.
I miss my dad i want to go home and live with him and be taken care of. I dont like looking after myself and going to sleep at night without the chatter of and whoever else.
I just miss being a kid, im watching that greenday song.. the clip is good i spose.. interesting.. but doesnt seem like much of a song.
sorry the minds wondering there.
yeh.. umm.. oh.
well its funny theres so much going on in my head and im all lost for words.
I could make a huge list of the things im worried about right now.. not that it would help.. im not sure il make it anymore.. theres days where i just give up.. and its fucking horrible.. or days where i just lay there and burst into tears.. not about one thing.. about everything cos i cant vent. i spose they dont last long tho.. just a bit of release.
I'm worried about being alone i spose.
im lost
that is all