im so sorry for leaving you lj! i got caught up in myspace. i know how it feels to be left behind.

[lil_lost_pixie2]

with or without you speaking to me. im sick of this. im sick of getting my heart broken im sick of tihnking that you wanted me and that we were something that we could have been sometihng. im sick of you leading me on. making me feel special. im sick of not sleeping bc i have no tears left to cry myself to sleep. im sick of feeling butterflies in my stomach everytime yoru around. im sick of actually wanting to shave my legs bc i know how much you get excited when i do. im sick of being happy all the time because i think abotu you. im sick of thinking about you knowing your not about me. im sick of pleasing you and getting nothing in return.

and apparently your sick of me.

i had what 2 days left in this horrible city of ours. i promise i wont return except for things that matter... so if you see me in the next 4 years consider it a privilage bc i dont play that run home to mommy and daddy game! im going to stick it out and do everythign ipossibly can to keep my 3.0 and graduate and get the hell out of this place for good.

pretty much run away from all my problems.

which prob isnt the best solutions, but it sems to me like its my best one at the moment. im ready for a new life. know matter what it is.

i had fun at my sisters party. thanks katies friends for takign me in and dealing with me lol... i think i handled myself nicely! haha!

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