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so chelseas bday was sooo much fun!
Jimmys ladies night... always a blast! free drinks! i love when im 21! ha! nothing exciting happened... just lots of alcohol and lots of dancing! maybe a little drama here and there but that was before and after!and it wasnt bad... everything ended up okay!
not like it mattered to me... i was in my own little love world that i like to have! ahhhh it was such a great night... after getting everyone home or back to there cars and everything me fredy melody and zets went back and found a place to sleep! mmm!
we kissed... cant you believe that was our first kiss? weve been "together" on and off for 2 freakin years and that was our first kiss and it was so good! so rememorable! so incredible! i cant stop thinking about it! ha... loser i am! then we we fell alseep in each others arms... i held on to him all night i didnt want to let him go...i couldnt get to sleep i didnt want to wake up and find him missing!... but it never happened i got a few little naps in at night! it was soo cute! i cant get over it! ha! i cant sleep tonight bc i want ot be next to him! kill mee!
im such a loser typical girl! ha. kill me!
Tonight I can't sleep,
Because of all the thoughts I keep,
Running around inside my brain.
Sweet memories come back,
Yeah thoughts of you attack my head,
Making me go so insane.
i want him. i do. he has some kind of feelings fo rme... but nothing that even compares to what i have for him. the next girl that rolls along with him... im out the window in 2 seconds its how it always is... and me i sit back and tak eit and wait til theyre over... and im back in again... im the back up plan! always... its a great feeling promise!
his brother woke us up because there was some creepy guy outside knocking on the door and opening and closing there mailbox! it was really creeppppy! and when bg went out his brother was talking to me adn asked if i had a crush on his older bro and isaid no and he said oh because for a long time i othuht you had and i was like uhh yeah i do. and smiled and he goes oh. because i would only let the special girls sleep in the bed with me and i was like oh so when your olde ryour going ot have girls sleep over and he said yea ill have alot of people over... but only the specials one in the bed! it was cute! those two are soo cool! there like the perfect brothers! ha!
things are turning around for me... other then my mom freakin out bc she doesnt want me going to mississippi she wants me at uno or slu somewhere close to home to watch my every move!... her excuse... "to save money on laundry" HAHAHA gotta love the mom! so now monday she is waking me up early and i am applying to every freakin school around here! ugh... and implus we cant exactly afford mississippi at the moment but im going to get loans and such! i guess ill figure things out... if not here comes SL fuck U! maybe shell let me go to ULL? that wouldnt be too bad! right? who freakin knows anymore?
works been going good.
lifes good.
love is good.
thanks for everything.
bp.