Nearing the day
My mind is riddled with thoughts of how much has changed in my life. The changes between me and William. He and I have become such different people. Each of us has been shaped by the good and bad in our lives. Last night, while having a conversation with my co-worker, I came to the realization that I miss my brother. The one from when we were little. The one where no matter what happened we couldn't hold a grudge against each other. The one who laughed more and smiled more. I miss him dearly. Though from time to time, I have had glimpses of that person, he is hidden now. That kills me inside to see and know the person before me is still my brother, but isn't the same anymore.
He is wraps himself in bitterness and that makes me really sad. Apart of the thoughts coming back was writing about the incident for Eng. Comp. I class. The professor didn't ask for something like what I wrote about, but he did say an important event in our lives that could be written as a narrative. I think it helped me deep down to write it. More then talking about it has ever done.
On to lighter more cheerful things, my birthday is just a day away. Thursday is the big 25 for me. I don't think I've had a birthday come where I've been this happy. Content with my life. I have such wonderful people who support me. This year, I have a great deal to be thankful for and my god do I hope I can show each person how much they truly mean to me.
Another side note, driving is getting easier. I still have things to work on, but I am driving with way more confidence. It's more smooth and I'm definitely less nervous. I had my first driving nightmare. Seems to be a common thing according to my friends who drive to have a dream about the breaks failing in a car you are driving. I hope to avoid those in future, If I can.
He is wraps himself in bitterness and that makes me really sad. Apart of the thoughts coming back was writing about the incident for Eng. Comp. I class. The professor didn't ask for something like what I wrote about, but he did say an important event in our lives that could be written as a narrative. I think it helped me deep down to write it. More then talking about it has ever done.
On to lighter more cheerful things, my birthday is just a day away. Thursday is the big 25 for me. I don't think I've had a birthday come where I've been this happy. Content with my life. I have such wonderful people who support me. This year, I have a great deal to be thankful for and my god do I hope I can show each person how much they truly mean to me.
Another side note, driving is getting easier. I still have things to work on, but I am driving with way more confidence. It's more smooth and I'm definitely less nervous. I had my first driving nightmare. Seems to be a common thing according to my friends who drive to have a dream about the breaks failing in a car you are driving. I hope to avoid those in future, If I can.