"you wonder what you want but it's not fair cause I know" -B.A.U.
And then suddenly I thought........."wait did I miss something?"...........I think I did. Cause I definitely didn't understand a lot of that. Actually I don't really think that I got any of that. My confusion is ammounting to......fear.
So I so got to drive Shawn's car yesterday. Yes, he actually let me drive HIS car. It was amazing. Except I ran a red light turning. I do that a lot. And that's bad. oops. And I even texted and drove. Until I almost ran into someone. I do that sometimes. ;)
I'm in the oddest mood. I think I managed to confuse myself to no end. And yet I had fun doing it. However that works. I seriously have no idea what to think. I'm so lost I feel like Mr. Stockton...haha I made a joke. An SCA joke. haha.
I have an immense feeling of aloneness today. And yet I don't. Being single is wierd. *shivvers* SINGLE.
The future. It scares me to death not knowing what is going to happen. I just wish I could know. I wish things could be simpler. I wish I had some assurance. Something to let me know that everything was going to be okay, something that I'd actually believe though. But I know I can't ask that. It can't be how I want it to. AND NO ONE CAN TELL ME WHAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN, WHAT'S HAPPENING, AND WHAT HAPPENED. And it's so frustrating.
And everyone who gos to SCA must go to the link on Jake's journal. It's...indescribable.....;) I lol'ed all over myself.
I walked out of the house this morning to get something out of the car and I was brushing my teeth and this old guy gave me a wierd look. I was scared.
Ok so it's really wierd I've been walking around singing last year's ACSI songs and Godspell. And worhsip songs. I never walk around singing. There's something wrong with me. Or Michael Grady is rubbing off on me. Yes that's it because he also got those dirty Steven Lynch songs in my head...that Catholic priest one is driving me insane. It's so bad. Ick. ICKY.
haha I just realized I haven't eaten since Saturday afternoon. And I'm not hungry. There's something wrong with bre.....
And now the ending to my long and boring post.........
I'M A GOOD DRIVER. ;)
~bre