GMH (givesmehope.com): Internship Week 4
If I've learned anything in life,
it is that sometimes things get in your path and you have a choice:
you can either smash right into them, or you can adjust and move around,
but you have to do one or the other in order to move forward.
I love going in and taking up extra shifts...I kind of felt really bad today though. I went to run an errand for one of the nurses, and I couldn't remember her name when the lady I was picking up the stuff from asked me what the nurse's name was that send me :/ I felt stupid -_-
I really need to work on memorizing all the nurse's names especially when most of them know my name and I don't. -__- There's just so many of them and every time I come in, there's new nurses that I haven't encountered yet D: and I have trouble remembering names. ): I need to think up of some kind of system to help me remember names better or something...maybe little nicknames might help.
Sometimes I feel like I got more stupid or something ever since that whole incident in the ER last summer. Did my brain cells deteriorate? I know that half my body went numb my 2nd and 3rd visit to the ER. Was it stroke? If sure felt like it.
So I was helping one patient go outside so she could smoke ( I wish ppl wouldn't smoke...I get enough of it at OCC...It's gross D: ) and she started asking random questions about me as we both sat outside. When she asked about my dad and I told her how he wasn't really there for me, she called him a sick man. ( I laughed at her comment...I know it's wrong of me, but I couldn't help it...in a way my dad is kind of messed up.) She knew right away without me telling her that he had a girlfriend somewhere.
The thing that made me feel a lot better was she said that I will have a blessed life. [: She thinks that because I had a hard past, and the fact that I give up time to volunteer and help people...Plus the fact that I'm dedicating my life career to helping people, that I would have a blessed life in the future. Her words GMH (givesmehope.com)
[Thanks Tammy for showing us that website] [:
Maybe now I just need to help myself get over the feeling that I'm not good enough for anyone.
Don't find someone who could simply sing your music or someone who could paint colors on you. Rather, find someone that cannot dance but who's willing to dance with you even without the music.