runaway...goodbye my hopeless dream

[lil_jei]

I want to dissapear
Run away from here
Leave behind all that isn't holy
All the torment
All the sadness I see day in day out
All the self pity
The rage
I want to say goodbye
Today
Yesterday
All gone in the blink of an eye
Me too
In the rear view
I watch as the life I never wanted fades away
To black and gray
The images in my mind always haunting
Always lingering
I honor the dead
The lost
The longing I feel is real
Remembrance
Reflection
Ever important
Always important
But not the most
Need be
I'm fleeing
Need me
Need myself
I'm running
For my sanity
For my health
For me
And me alone
Not them
Not the past
Just me
On the road to nowhere
Nowhere special
But still everything
To me.

~J July 09