To those I've loved...M. M. K. K. O.
I know I haven't told you lately but I miss you,
Years and lifetimes apart I've never thought upon as much as I do today,
Lonely times beg me for reflection,
I never knew that I loved you too little too late.
But I know now that I lost you too soon,
Your memories and lingering love haunts me still,
The feeling of soft lips, gentle love, and harsh words give reason to my nightmares and daydreams,
Innocent touches and adult loving gave me a lifetime of bittersweet regrets.
Mischa,
My love of so many years gone,
Two innocents destroyed by lust,
One still haunted by the love held close to the breast, never shared.
Matteo,
Determination made for such a strong mate,
The lack of burning love made for a short and dying future,
Dreams crushed by too many actions warring for a wasting amount of attention.
Kel,
Forbidden love brought two souls together,
Just one season becoming an eternity of temptation,
But dreams are all I have left of such a sweet sin.
Kay,
I still look for you today,
More than most I long for you,
Robbed from me in our finest hour I miss you most.
Oberon,
Such a white knight on a steed,
Fallen from your horse I no longer idolize you,
Dream of you? Yes. Ask what if? Always. Beg for you? Never.
Sentimental and ornamental my body still hungers,
Decorations and dreams lace my memories,
The decades passing have been kind, maybe too kind in some respects,
I still long for most, though I know my wishes bear no fruit.
Writing and wishes bring me nothing but pain,
May the future be brighter as I lay aside your ghosts and move on,
To a new life and love,
To a new me.
May I be better than before.
~Feb. 3. 09. J.
Yeah I know way to go on the overkill of sap. But here I was just feeling the need to express myself a bit...probably so I don't get more tattoos dedicated in my memories of them.