my supposed updates...
It's weird how in Phys ed. they tell you that life's roller coaster never ends but always continues...
In the Erickson theory of development, also pretty much the same statement is made...
And now after all that, i believe them...
There's ups and downs, but how do you go about making yourself independent without pushing away those who you love???? They want to be there for you but, you (as a humanly reaction to it all) put up your defenses and very much so say i'm sure i can handle this on my own...
Perhaps i'm just weak, perhaps i'm co-dependent...actually i lie...i know i'm co-dependent, independent but co-dependent, either on friends or relationship partners! I wish to have a partner, but does it make sense for me to put it off to pursue my own wants in my career and self-development like travelling to put my own wants of someone to hold intimately??? I don't know...i seem to want to think that love will come my way but after having not had a partner in almost 3 years going now, it just seems so vague and rather hopeless in thinking that i'll ever find anyone!!!
I had an awesome year last year with everything going smoothly (besides the relationship side - bingo zero) but now this year, i just seem to constantly go into a rut, come back up and down into a rut again and i'm supposedly meant to be more mature, which i think i am, but when it comes to relationships i have NO CLUE! It's rather sad and frustrating...on my behalf anyway!!!
anyway i'm off to sleep i think
i have to work tomorrow
I have plenty of friends whom i'm ALWAYS greatful but it'd be nice from time to time to know that someone does find you attractive...and partner material!
It can be such a lonely world at times i think!!!
advice?
In the Erickson theory of development, also pretty much the same statement is made...
And now after all that, i believe them...
There's ups and downs, but how do you go about making yourself independent without pushing away those who you love???? They want to be there for you but, you (as a humanly reaction to it all) put up your defenses and very much so say i'm sure i can handle this on my own...
Perhaps i'm just weak, perhaps i'm co-dependent...actually i lie...i know i'm co-dependent, independent but co-dependent, either on friends or relationship partners! I wish to have a partner, but does it make sense for me to put it off to pursue my own wants in my career and self-development like travelling to put my own wants of someone to hold intimately??? I don't know...i seem to want to think that love will come my way but after having not had a partner in almost 3 years going now, it just seems so vague and rather hopeless in thinking that i'll ever find anyone!!!
I had an awesome year last year with everything going smoothly (besides the relationship side - bingo zero) but now this year, i just seem to constantly go into a rut, come back up and down into a rut again and i'm supposedly meant to be more mature, which i think i am, but when it comes to relationships i have NO CLUE! It's rather sad and frustrating...on my behalf anyway!!!
anyway i'm off to sleep i think
i have to work tomorrow
I have plenty of friends whom i'm ALWAYS greatful but it'd be nice from time to time to know that someone does find you attractive...and partner material!
It can be such a lonely world at times i think!!!
advice?