Just leave me alone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[lil_janey]

he does it every time.
and i do it every time.
the tears always well up in my eyes
and i always believe him.
i dont like this feeling he gives me
and i dont like the anxiousness i get when he msgs me..
i dont like crying.
i dont like hurting.
i dont like this.
and i dont like life.

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[lil_janey]

well he did come and see me. but that was written just after he signed off of msn.
it was weird seeing him, i even said to him at one stage "its really werid cause i dont know what to say to you. like im not angry or hating you i just-i dont know what to talk about."....then of course my parents came home from going in town for a coffee! i felt sorry for him cause it woulda been awkward.
but i was really glad i saw him-omg after he left i walked over to my dad who was at my neighbours house helping them and tears ran down my face and i just said "Dad? can i have a hug?" and he was like "yeah sure lil why?...who was that who was here?-me, Shaun-ohh took him awhile to come out-me, mhh yeah-was he mean to you?-me, no-ohh, it just hurts doesnt it Lil?-me, yeah-its alright, you'll be okay"
we both stood on my neighbours front step for the next 10 minutes as i cried. i dont even know why i cried though cause i was happy i saw him-i just think the morning was just a little overwhelming for me and it all just hit me.
loves you hun-sorry bout the long comment...more like an update =P

[psychoticsquid]

That's okay, glad things are okay. Eat snails and live long!