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well to any one that reads this hopefully knows me. But in case you dont heres a little thats been going on in my life. I live with my uncle mike and aunt cathy which they are pretty cool. i love my aunt dearly but i either love her to death or just cant stand her! I started living with them a little over a year ago when my parents were incarcerated. (every body still looks at me funny) which by the way were recently released. now my mother exspects me to just come back to her with open arms! bull shit. I know my aunt tries to care for me and do whats best for me but sometimes she is really negative and it bugs the pure T shit out of me! just the way she speaks to me sometimes can almost put me to tears. here lately though ive been going for walks just to get away from every thing. this is the first place that ive lived and i dont really have any where to go and think or just to get my mind off of things.I have no car so its not like i can just get up and leave! but hopefully i will be able to get a job soon which will keep me from loosing my sanity (or at lease what sanity i have) and get a car and just leave! i think thats one of the things that scares me the most....money. i plan to move away to either wilmington or greenville next year but if i dont get a job and get my shit together soon i dont see that happen. and i swear i will loose my damn mind if i have to stay with some body watching my every move for another year! I do have some safe havens though. my friends. and i dont mean "aquaintices" ( i cant spell!) people who actually understand me and where im coming from and just care about me and they help keep me sane , keep me leveled.