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I guess I want to be like that guy in 50 First Dates. You know, the Ten Second Tom guy? How cool would that be...to be enlightened every ten seconds, and to forget the past so soon. It's like a fresh beginning. Might be frustrating, but you'll still forget. haha.
Some people say that sports don't really play into your life, but that theory is very wrong. Of course they do. Sports teach you a lot. It teaches you that sometimes the situation seems impossible, but that sometimes, not all the time, you can pull through and play the hero even if only for a minute. It teaches you patience and endurence for the things you don't like as well as what you do like. At the same time though it really gives you a taste of the real world. Sometimes you can work really hard all the time and never take anything for granted and lose out to someone who does just the opposite. It can really put you down. And then try losing a few more times and seeing how you feel. But I guess it really is all for the best. I mean, the world isn't perfect, so of course it isn't fair. The things I see are in a complete different perspective than those around me. One day though-- one day though I'm really going to prove everyone wrong, because when I get my chance I'll show them.
And it doesn't really mean just in sports either. I guess I've been frustrated with so much lately. Ariel walks in today and decides she just "doesn't want" to come to press nights. Which means I'll pretty much be doing everything myself. Amy is my assistant but I help her more than she helps me...she's still learning, but eventually she'll get the hang of it. Until then, things are very uneven. Ariel takes avantage of me...probably because she can. I'm in a spot where I have to take care of whatever if she doesn't show up...and she already said she won't. At least it is a warning...I guess.
I want to be really great at something. I want to do something so well that people notice. I try really hard, but I don't think I've found my thing yet. I have to learn how to stand up for myself if I'm going to make it in this world.
I feel walked on a lot.
Some people say that sports don't really play into your life, but that theory is very wrong. Of course they do. Sports teach you a lot. It teaches you that sometimes the situation seems impossible, but that sometimes, not all the time, you can pull through and play the hero even if only for a minute. It teaches you patience and endurence for the things you don't like as well as what you do like. At the same time though it really gives you a taste of the real world. Sometimes you can work really hard all the time and never take anything for granted and lose out to someone who does just the opposite. It can really put you down. And then try losing a few more times and seeing how you feel. But I guess it really is all for the best. I mean, the world isn't perfect, so of course it isn't fair. The things I see are in a complete different perspective than those around me. One day though-- one day though I'm really going to prove everyone wrong, because when I get my chance I'll show them.
And it doesn't really mean just in sports either. I guess I've been frustrated with so much lately. Ariel walks in today and decides she just "doesn't want" to come to press nights. Which means I'll pretty much be doing everything myself. Amy is my assistant but I help her more than she helps me...she's still learning, but eventually she'll get the hang of it. Until then, things are very uneven. Ariel takes avantage of me...probably because she can. I'm in a spot where I have to take care of whatever if she doesn't show up...and she already said she won't. At least it is a warning...I guess.
I want to be really great at something. I want to do something so well that people notice. I try really hard, but I don't think I've found my thing yet. I have to learn how to stand up for myself if I'm going to make it in this world.
I feel walked on a lot.