time to vent..... i doubt you'll enjoy reading this so just move on in your life.
im in a really bad mood ok...
im glad this year is finally over. it started out decent, but come on, i broke my leg-WHO DOES THAT?? that blew a ton. then from there it just kind of sucked. i enjoyed myself in many situations but overall i'd say it was a negative year. im not trying to be sad or striving for attention or whatever, and if you think i am kill yourself ok. it was so uneventful and id have to say that its pretty much my own fault but oh well, it's what i choose to do that doesnt allow fun in my life i guess. i wish the world didnt have to get drunk all of the time and if you dont want to do it its not heard of to hang out with most people cause its all they ever do. why do you need alcohol to have fun though
i think im just bitching cause im sitting here at 1231 on new years eve in my empty house. i babysat and im fine with that, but really when the ball dropped i got pretty emotional cause everyone was out "celebrating a year in the life of friends" and all that good stuff and i wasn't. who would i have been with anyway? who that i hang out with wasnt out drinking? other than a few that i probably couldve been with if not babysitting, i apologize if you are offended by me saying that cause i know of a few i can name dont be sad. and PLEASE don't get upset or offended by me saying things about my friends all being out drinking and im not trying to get any sympathy or making you feel bad. honestly, i am not it's not your fault so please ok
i hate watching the disney channel stars that are the same age as me and all my childhood wishing i was one of them, and wishing my parents took me out to california so i could be an actress, and wishing i was famous in some way, the way that they are. seriously all that this life is made up of is luck. i swear. its luck if you get the right job or into the right school or the right amount of money to go to that school, or if you get a record deal, or if you get an acting job, famous basically, or if you meet that 'special someone' or whatever. its just all about luck. and if you disagree thats fine, its just my opinion at the moment. so i dont know how i feel about everything being about luck really
i just want to move on with my life and get out of high school, even college. i just want to either travel or spend a year or two in nyc and just live a life that i can enjoy. and i am enjoying this life its just getting so repetitive and its pretty rejecting, if you know what i mean.
i wish i was really into learning, so i could be smart and study a lot with all of the time i spend sitting at the computer or in front of the tv but i just cant get myself to pick up a book to study or to read an sat book so i can actually do decent on them.
so new years eve, and im going to bed at 1. i just wish i was with some friends ya no? or i guess with anyone! but really. i love you all and i hope your new year is as rewarding as you are dreaming of.
happy new year :)
im glad this year is finally over. it started out decent, but come on, i broke my leg-WHO DOES THAT?? that blew a ton. then from there it just kind of sucked. i enjoyed myself in many situations but overall i'd say it was a negative year. im not trying to be sad or striving for attention or whatever, and if you think i am kill yourself ok. it was so uneventful and id have to say that its pretty much my own fault but oh well, it's what i choose to do that doesnt allow fun in my life i guess. i wish the world didnt have to get drunk all of the time and if you dont want to do it its not heard of to hang out with most people cause its all they ever do. why do you need alcohol to have fun though
i think im just bitching cause im sitting here at 1231 on new years eve in my empty house. i babysat and im fine with that, but really when the ball dropped i got pretty emotional cause everyone was out "celebrating a year in the life of friends" and all that good stuff and i wasn't. who would i have been with anyway? who that i hang out with wasnt out drinking? other than a few that i probably couldve been with if not babysitting, i apologize if you are offended by me saying that cause i know of a few i can name dont be sad. and PLEASE don't get upset or offended by me saying things about my friends all being out drinking and im not trying to get any sympathy or making you feel bad. honestly, i am not it's not your fault so please ok
i hate watching the disney channel stars that are the same age as me and all my childhood wishing i was one of them, and wishing my parents took me out to california so i could be an actress, and wishing i was famous in some way, the way that they are. seriously all that this life is made up of is luck. i swear. its luck if you get the right job or into the right school or the right amount of money to go to that school, or if you get a record deal, or if you get an acting job, famous basically, or if you meet that 'special someone' or whatever. its just all about luck. and if you disagree thats fine, its just my opinion at the moment. so i dont know how i feel about everything being about luck really
i just want to move on with my life and get out of high school, even college. i just want to either travel or spend a year or two in nyc and just live a life that i can enjoy. and i am enjoying this life its just getting so repetitive and its pretty rejecting, if you know what i mean.
i wish i was really into learning, so i could be smart and study a lot with all of the time i spend sitting at the computer or in front of the tv but i just cant get myself to pick up a book to study or to read an sat book so i can actually do decent on them.
so new years eve, and im going to bed at 1. i just wish i was with some friends ya no? or i guess with anyone! but really. i love you all and i hope your new year is as rewarding as you are dreaming of.
happy new year :)