5 days left...

[lil_green_eye7]

Today was Chris' graduation...It was great! An outside-graduation...770 students...Girls dressed in light blue, guys in dark blue...No clouds, the sun was shining...It was a beautiful day..
After the graduation we went do a restaurant in Naperville...Really really good food, but I couldn't eat all of it...lol...It was definitely too much! After dinner we went out to see "Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Askaban"...Chris and I were soooo excited to see that movie...It was really good...Now I'm sitting here in the basement...Thinking about someone I told myself not to think about...And it is not David...Oh well...I'll be leavingin 5 days...There is nothing else to lose...And he will probably never know what was going on in my mind during my last days here in the USA...Just because I'm afraid to tell...Usually I'm not like this, but this time I'm too scared...Too scared to screw up...I don't wanna screw this up, although there is nothing I can screw up, because I'm leaving anyway...And it sucks...

I'm torn on the inside
And I'm trying to hide
All the feeling
I barely can fight

I told myself not to
Fall in love ever again

I'm torn on the inside
And I'm trying to hide
All the memories
Trying to push them aside

I told myself not to
Fall in love ever again

I'm torn on the inside
And I'm trying to say
I love you
But this time I can't have it my way

Because I told myself not to
Fall in love ever again

This poem is for the person I had to think about for over a month now...He was always around...Made me laugh...and...made me cry...too many times...I should accept the fact that I can't have him and I should be happy with what we had...

Thank you.

Good night,
Laura