someone for me :(
So i went to the bar last night like every weekend, but for once i didn't have the best time...especially not as much fun as i usually have. I think the reason might be that everyone is starting to pair off. Everyone is finding that person for themselves and i seem to be alone. Not literally alone...all my friends are still there and its not like they are all about PDA and everything, but just knowing that they have someone to go home with or too just gives me a sad feeling when i leave the bar alone. I know it shouldn't bother me because I love my freedom and being able to flirt and what not with a bunch of ppl. I like my independence and I don't really need a relationship, but what i want is someone, for once, who is willing to just lay down with me and talk instead of trying to have sex with me. Althought i am not against sex what so ever, it's always good to know the person might actually care if they can just lay beside you. I probably won't find anything like that at a bar...or even in sydney for that matter, but i think i am finally willing to try. The only thing i am kinda scared about is that it might lead to a relationship...and i don't want that at all right now...i guess i just want an actual FRIEND with benefits. It sucks because i did have that during the last year and i think i am just realizing how much i miss it :( haha and there i go rambling again....lol