Groovy Tuesday

[lil_elle]

I haven't posted lately because not only do I not have a lot time at the moment, I really don't have much to share. I am finding myself on any given day feeling serenity more often than not. I am finding myself to be patient, loving, and tolerant more often than not. I do find myself struggling with serenity, patience, love, and tolerance though when my husband and I have intense conflict. I am not spirtually mature enough to find serenity in these situations. I just go all out ballistic. I am still a door slammer. I still act immature. But, now I don't beat myself up so much over being inept emotionally immature human. I just try harder to do better next time. I am also more able to recognize what caused me to go ballistic (usually fear, fear of losing something I already have or fear of not getting what I want).

I am looking forward to watching new Queer Eye for Straight Guy tonight.