Just droppin' a line...
I'm on my way to the dentist but i wanted to post. things are going unusally well for me right now. i thought i would be a total mess the week before graduation but i am fine. i was writing my senior moment for band and i was actually getting excited. i dont know it is really wierd. oh well...
just had lunch with my mommy. it was nice. we just talked about graduation and all the band functions coming up. im glad some of my friends are going to the concert on saturday. my mom will be there also. its going to be the first time she has ever been to one of my concerts. exciting? i think so!
oh i almost forgot. was thinking today about the reasons why i have never been in a relationship before. i dont get it... do you think that my standards can be so high that i will never met anyone that can make me happy. or is it that i am so afraid of getting hurt that i wont try to met new people and never find that special someone. or maybe it is the fact that no one has ever aproached me and try to start a relationship with me so i think that i am not good enough for anyone. it confuses me because im lonely but i dont know how to change it. i almost feel like it is always going to be this way. no one to leave roses on my car, or take me out to dinner, or call me on the phone just to talk for hours, no family dinners with them, no one to hold me when i am upset. hmmmm.... i want all that but how do i get it?
just had lunch with my mommy. it was nice. we just talked about graduation and all the band functions coming up. im glad some of my friends are going to the concert on saturday. my mom will be there also. its going to be the first time she has ever been to one of my concerts. exciting? i think so!
oh i almost forgot. was thinking today about the reasons why i have never been in a relationship before. i dont get it... do you think that my standards can be so high that i will never met anyone that can make me happy. or is it that i am so afraid of getting hurt that i wont try to met new people and never find that special someone. or maybe it is the fact that no one has ever aproached me and try to start a relationship with me so i think that i am not good enough for anyone. it confuses me because im lonely but i dont know how to change it. i almost feel like it is always going to be this way. no one to leave roses on my car, or take me out to dinner, or call me on the phone just to talk for hours, no family dinners with them, no one to hold me when i am upset. hmmmm.... i want all that but how do i get it?