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So, I hate sketchy anonymous lj posts, but I'm about to do one. But it's a good one. Positive and smiley. So get over it.
I am moving on, and OK with it. It was a lot easier than I thought it would be. I just kind of sat there one day and just thought, "Wow. I'm over this..." and I guess that's just the way it should be. It's nothing personal, actually I'm looking at it as "the ball's in your court" kind of way. But it's just something that needed to happen. But I kind of wondered why I thought this meant something long enough to actually think something would happen between us, and I realized God was teaching me something.
In the past when *someone* would never return my phone calls, *forget* to show up, or just change *someone's* feelings about following through with what *someone* had committed to doing, I thought I deserved it. I was annoying. Pushy. Didn't deserve *someone*. But then you came around. You called me back even if it wasn't necessary to do that. You always showed up. Even early. You were always there. You made me realize that in the past I had been settling for mediocre (sometimes mediocre even being an exaggeration) and that I deserve better than that, even if it isn't with you. You deserve great things too. You're a great person and I hope the best for you, genuinely from the bottom of my heart. So much about college has changed, for the better, the way I look at myself and you have been the biggest part of why, I think. You've also made me realize that there's more to a relationship (in any realm, friendship or otherwise) than the way someone looks, that there are, in fact, some people who look a little deeper to get to know someone. So thanks. A lot.
On a closing note, if you are embarrassed or have any negative feelings about this please do let me know and I'll remove it ASAP. I just wanted to thank you at some point in my life before I forgot to do it or I wouldn't be able to do it, for some reason. Just so you know, thank you so much. For everything.
I am moving on, and OK with it. It was a lot easier than I thought it would be. I just kind of sat there one day and just thought, "Wow. I'm over this..." and I guess that's just the way it should be. It's nothing personal, actually I'm looking at it as "the ball's in your court" kind of way. But it's just something that needed to happen. But I kind of wondered why I thought this meant something long enough to actually think something would happen between us, and I realized God was teaching me something.
In the past when *someone* would never return my phone calls, *forget* to show up, or just change *someone's* feelings about following through with what *someone* had committed to doing, I thought I deserved it. I was annoying. Pushy. Didn't deserve *someone*. But then you came around. You called me back even if it wasn't necessary to do that. You always showed up. Even early. You were always there. You made me realize that in the past I had been settling for mediocre (sometimes mediocre even being an exaggeration) and that I deserve better than that, even if it isn't with you. You deserve great things too. You're a great person and I hope the best for you, genuinely from the bottom of my heart. So much about college has changed, for the better, the way I look at myself and you have been the biggest part of why, I think. You've also made me realize that there's more to a relationship (in any realm, friendship or otherwise) than the way someone looks, that there are, in fact, some people who look a little deeper to get to know someone. So thanks. A lot.
On a closing note, if you are embarrassed or have any negative feelings about this please do let me know and I'll remove it ASAP. I just wanted to thank you at some point in my life before I forgot to do it or I wouldn't be able to do it, for some reason. Just so you know, thank you so much. For everything.