::le sigh::
i can't sleep.... it's going on 9 in the morning... i'm sure i'll crash soon... Well, i hope so cuz i randomly slipped into a really pessimistic/cynical-ish mood... don't know why, i was in a good enough mood... ::sigh:: fuck it. I don't know i guess i just got to thinking again.. stood back to look at my decisions from an old standpoint. i'm fucked up compaired to the way i used to be, or atleast i feel that way. I've done things i knew were below me to do, i've shifted all my old morals and i don't like change. Oh well. I promised myself i would do somethings because i knew it could never work out in the end, quite a few things and many promises broken. It's like i'm sitting back about to get in a really big accident and the only thing stopping me from not causing pain is my own stupidity. oh well... i think i'm done for the time being... it's funny how the only thing that makes me want to sleep even in my sleepless nights is depressing outlooks on life... I don't even know if i want to dream, last night i had a dream and it basically played out what was plagueing my mind the most, i love my dreamz, but i would definatly pass up a change to have that dream again if i could help it... Oh well off to bed perhaps to sleep we'll see.
~Leave Me Love~
~Leave Me Love~