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Ango is right, i only write in this thing when i feel things are outta my control, and things have never felt more so in a long long long time.
A girlfriend of mine was just taken away by another friend of hers because she was going insane, I didnt know how to deal with it. "I'm gonna fuckin slit my throat in a minute", she said to me, looking me coldly in the eyes. she was filled with such an insane passion I dont think i have been that scared for her or myself like that, in a while.
Thus proving to me even further whenever i try and help someone i hurt them more. So no more helping anyone, friend or foe, im just not going to help anyone. Lara was right, i cant help everyone and i should just stop trying cause its only gonna keep hurting me. like always she is right makin me feel more and more like a douche' bag.
I've since sat in my room with nothing but the dim hall light entering my room. the fan on, and the room mostly dark. Tomorrow is a new day, in 20 mintues its a new day and i dont think i know how to start it.
Im worried about my girlfriend and more so worried that she will make it to the end of the week, alive at least.
A girlfriend of mine was just taken away by another friend of hers because she was going insane, I didnt know how to deal with it. "I'm gonna fuckin slit my throat in a minute", she said to me, looking me coldly in the eyes. she was filled with such an insane passion I dont think i have been that scared for her or myself like that, in a while.
Thus proving to me even further whenever i try and help someone i hurt them more. So no more helping anyone, friend or foe, im just not going to help anyone. Lara was right, i cant help everyone and i should just stop trying cause its only gonna keep hurting me. like always she is right makin me feel more and more like a douche' bag.
I've since sat in my room with nothing but the dim hall light entering my room. the fan on, and the room mostly dark. Tomorrow is a new day, in 20 mintues its a new day and i dont think i know how to start it.
Im worried about my girlfriend and more so worried that she will make it to the end of the week, alive at least.