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Congrats grad.
Somehow I never imagined congratulating you would feel so crummy. I realize that your taking another step up in life, but that’s another step away from me. Goodbye’s are so difficult and I figured that right there on the spot I might choke up and not know what to say so I decided I’d write you something ahead of time to make sure I got out everything I want to say to you.
At graduation when they let the balloons go as Doug’s name was called I watched them float away and only thought about them and how they symbolize all the graduates leaving. I want to just grab your hand and never let you go but I can’t. There’s just a certain point where I have to watch you go and realize there isn’t anything I can do to stop it.
College is going to be great for you, I have no doubts. I don’t want you to want to stay here or not move on because you should. I just never feel like I’m ready to lose you. It’s so hard to say goodbye to everything there is between us. I need to hear your stupid loud car driving down my street, and I need to smell your neck to know that you’re right there, close to me. I need to hold your hand to know that we belong together. I need to kiss you to know that everything’s just right. I need to be with you all the time because I love you.
Please don’t ever forget about us. There’s too much here to be forgotten. You make me laugh in a way that no one else does. You get to see all sides of me, and you still love me. You’re the only person I can’t muster up the strength to stay mad at for over 3 hours. You’re basically the only person I want to be with all the time. You understand me. You think up cute things to do for me and you spent all day making me the best birthday card that anyone’s ever given me. I don’t know if you understand the way I’m feeling, but I feel like I’m losing my best friend and my boyfriend all at once. I know it’s easy for me to put all the blame on you as you are leaving me, but that’s technically not fair. You’re leaving me here with everyone I know and everyone I’m comfortable with. You have to go out and meet all the people you’re going to spend the next four years of your life with, and get adjusted to a new town and a new place to live. You have to get adjusted to an all new way of life. Just don’t get too tangled up in all the new excitements of college and forget to give this girl a call once in a while. She loves you, remember.
You are the first person to touch my heart in the way that you have. You opened me up to see love, and the way it should be shared. You’ve made me a better person and for that, I thank you. I just hope I’ve made half the impact on you that you have on me. Please don’t change too much, don’t mature too much, and most of all, don’t stop being the John I love so much. I love you for everything that you are. I even love the fact that you snore and that you jump at the fact of some retarded kid putting his arm around me. I love the way you eat everything healthy. I love the fact that you go to the gym every day of your life. You probably spend more time on workout machines than you do with me. I’ll miss having someone to push off the bed at nights when I’m sleeping. I’ll miss your hugs and I’ll miss squeezing you. I’ll miss starting off a brand new school year without you. I’ll miss you opening my locker for me. DON’T FORGET: 743; 46-12-08. Just don’t forget anything. Don’t forget the kisses or the laughs or anything in between. Because I promise you with everything I have, I wont. I love you more than the words I love you can describe.
Somehow I never imagined congratulating you would feel so crummy. I realize that your taking another step up in life, but that’s another step away from me. Goodbye’s are so difficult and I figured that right there on the spot I might choke up and not know what to say so I decided I’d write you something ahead of time to make sure I got out everything I want to say to you.
At graduation when they let the balloons go as Doug’s name was called I watched them float away and only thought about them and how they symbolize all the graduates leaving. I want to just grab your hand and never let you go but I can’t. There’s just a certain point where I have to watch you go and realize there isn’t anything I can do to stop it.
College is going to be great for you, I have no doubts. I don’t want you to want to stay here or not move on because you should. I just never feel like I’m ready to lose you. It’s so hard to say goodbye to everything there is between us. I need to hear your stupid loud car driving down my street, and I need to smell your neck to know that you’re right there, close to me. I need to hold your hand to know that we belong together. I need to kiss you to know that everything’s just right. I need to be with you all the time because I love you.
Please don’t ever forget about us. There’s too much here to be forgotten. You make me laugh in a way that no one else does. You get to see all sides of me, and you still love me. You’re the only person I can’t muster up the strength to stay mad at for over 3 hours. You’re basically the only person I want to be with all the time. You understand me. You think up cute things to do for me and you spent all day making me the best birthday card that anyone’s ever given me. I don’t know if you understand the way I’m feeling, but I feel like I’m losing my best friend and my boyfriend all at once. I know it’s easy for me to put all the blame on you as you are leaving me, but that’s technically not fair. You’re leaving me here with everyone I know and everyone I’m comfortable with. You have to go out and meet all the people you’re going to spend the next four years of your life with, and get adjusted to a new town and a new place to live. You have to get adjusted to an all new way of life. Just don’t get too tangled up in all the new excitements of college and forget to give this girl a call once in a while. She loves you, remember.
You are the first person to touch my heart in the way that you have. You opened me up to see love, and the way it should be shared. You’ve made me a better person and for that, I thank you. I just hope I’ve made half the impact on you that you have on me. Please don’t change too much, don’t mature too much, and most of all, don’t stop being the John I love so much. I love you for everything that you are. I even love the fact that you snore and that you jump at the fact of some retarded kid putting his arm around me. I love the way you eat everything healthy. I love the fact that you go to the gym every day of your life. You probably spend more time on workout machines than you do with me. I’ll miss having someone to push off the bed at nights when I’m sleeping. I’ll miss your hugs and I’ll miss squeezing you. I’ll miss starting off a brand new school year without you. I’ll miss you opening my locker for me. DON’T FORGET: 743; 46-12-08. Just don’t forget anything. Don’t forget the kisses or the laughs or anything in between. Because I promise you with everything I have, I wont. I love you more than the words I love you can describe.