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i dunno. whenever i write about my feelings on here i end up regreting it. but i need somewhere to vent so here goes.
Freaking hell i just wanna get outta high school. Everything sucks now. Everyone is getting on my nerves....there are just some people that i hope i never ever have to talk to again. I'm sooo tired of the same old damn routine over and over and over again. I can't even stay awake in class anymore. I skipped after 3rd period today. Prob gonna end up regreting that too sooner or later. God i'm just so tired....tired of everything. Some things from my past are starting to creep back into my head again....god damnit i thought i was completely over that shit...guess not. I HATE THINKING ABOUT THIS STUFF.
Spring Break is when im gonna let it all out...i dont care what happens or what i do or who knows. Fuck you if you don't like what i do. Take it or leave it. That's all i have to say. I'm gonna take a walk tonight after everyone's asleep. Just think about my life and what i'm doing. Where the fuck i'm going. If i'm gonna keep pretending just so everyone else can see that i'm ok.
This shit is starting to manifest into physical pain. Like i can't even get up in the morning or function anymore whether i get any sleep or not. Can only stare at people when they talk to me cuz if i open my mouth i know im gonna make someone cry. Can't seem to keep my eyes open or pay attention to anything. Is this what senioritis is???
I'm so damn sad and mad and confused. I need someone to make me laugh, someone i can talk to, someone who i can feel will always be there for me and give me a 100 percent everyday. FUCK YOU life for making me think so hard. Fuck you for giving me a glimpse of the good in life then taking it away and making me wish over and over again that things were different. You know what...fuck you Gladys you motherfucking dumbass for screwing yourself over in every aspect of your life. Congratulations for getting yourself into all this shit that you can't stand. I HATE YOU.
Freaking hell i just wanna get outta high school. Everything sucks now. Everyone is getting on my nerves....there are just some people that i hope i never ever have to talk to again. I'm sooo tired of the same old damn routine over and over and over again. I can't even stay awake in class anymore. I skipped after 3rd period today. Prob gonna end up regreting that too sooner or later. God i'm just so tired....tired of everything. Some things from my past are starting to creep back into my head again....god damnit i thought i was completely over that shit...guess not. I HATE THINKING ABOUT THIS STUFF.
Spring Break is when im gonna let it all out...i dont care what happens or what i do or who knows. Fuck you if you don't like what i do. Take it or leave it. That's all i have to say. I'm gonna take a walk tonight after everyone's asleep. Just think about my life and what i'm doing. Where the fuck i'm going. If i'm gonna keep pretending just so everyone else can see that i'm ok.
This shit is starting to manifest into physical pain. Like i can't even get up in the morning or function anymore whether i get any sleep or not. Can only stare at people when they talk to me cuz if i open my mouth i know im gonna make someone cry. Can't seem to keep my eyes open or pay attention to anything. Is this what senioritis is???
I'm so damn sad and mad and confused. I need someone to make me laugh, someone i can talk to, someone who i can feel will always be there for me and give me a 100 percent everyday. FUCK YOU life for making me think so hard. Fuck you for giving me a glimpse of the good in life then taking it away and making me wish over and over again that things were different. You know what...fuck you Gladys you motherfucking dumbass for screwing yourself over in every aspect of your life. Congratulations for getting yourself into all this shit that you can't stand. I HATE YOU.