Not holding it together
I nearly ended up on a 72 hour hold as a hospital in patient because I can't hold it together and my psychiatrist and therapist believed I may be a danger to myself. I was not allowed to be home alone last night and was supposed to go this morning. They agreed to let me stay home provided I continue to have another adult in my home.
I found a letter this morning that I wrote to Brenna a few months ago. This did not help me at all. I didn't have access to a computer at the time and I actually sat and typed the whole thing on my cell phone using emoticons where they fit. It took me several hours to set it all up even prior to typing the email. I have considered moving on and tried to meet new people with dating potential but I just feel like I am cheating.
Mentally and physically my health is going downhill fast. Surgery will be November 1st to determine what is wrong with my kidney. I am barely maintaining my weight at 112. Always in pain and on lots of meds just trying to control the physical pain in my lower left abdomen. No one yet has been able to help and I have been sent from specialist to specialist trying.
I found a letter this morning that I wrote to Brenna a few months ago. This did not help me at all. I didn't have access to a computer at the time and I actually sat and typed the whole thing on my cell phone using emoticons where they fit. It took me several hours to set it all up even prior to typing the email. I have considered moving on and tried to meet new people with dating potential but I just feel like I am cheating.
Mentally and physically my health is going downhill fast. Surgery will be November 1st to determine what is wrong with my kidney. I am barely maintaining my weight at 112. Always in pain and on lots of meds just trying to control the physical pain in my lower left abdomen. No one yet has been able to help and I have been sent from specialist to specialist trying.