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i get into a routine..things are going alright...then, of course, you fuck up., i mean, how long did i really expect it to last right?
it got to the point where i wouldnt find anything, and that was weird to me. i knew it was a matter of time, is it weird that i get some weird internal satisfaction when i find it? it kills me just teh same every time, but, its almost like, well...at least now i can be mad at u, at least now i can yell at u for all teh shit i keep inside everyday.
none of it makes sense to me. wat the hell goes through ur mind? i guess ill never know. i mean, i guess it doesnt really matter...i know ur gonna fuck up. i know ur gonna lie, i know ur gonna keep hurting us all.
but when are u gonna realize that im not gonna be here for much longer?
who is gonna carry this burden of worrying, thinking about it everyday when im gone?
of no one does, then ur just gonna fuck urself over more than any of us.
that is wat scares me the most. the uncertainty.
it got to the point where i wouldnt find anything, and that was weird to me. i knew it was a matter of time, is it weird that i get some weird internal satisfaction when i find it? it kills me just teh same every time, but, its almost like, well...at least now i can be mad at u, at least now i can yell at u for all teh shit i keep inside everyday.
none of it makes sense to me. wat the hell goes through ur mind? i guess ill never know. i mean, i guess it doesnt really matter...i know ur gonna fuck up. i know ur gonna lie, i know ur gonna keep hurting us all.
but when are u gonna realize that im not gonna be here for much longer?
who is gonna carry this burden of worrying, thinking about it everyday when im gone?
of no one does, then ur just gonna fuck urself over more than any of us.
that is wat scares me the most. the uncertainty.