Things are getting old
This mood has hit me before. I know exactly what it is too. I am getting depressed again. Its not for lack of having everything I want because I do. Every time I want something I get it. The reason is because I am tired of doing the same things, seeing the same things, going the same places, and seeing the same people. I dont like getting into rutien. I dont like to have a continuos life of the same thing everyday. I could say I want to go out I want togo driving, but somehow it feels like I have already been everywhere and seen everything. There is nothing new nothing exciting to me anymore. The more I think about all the times I said I hated moving and now, I think I actually enjoyed moving just for the simple fact things werent always the same in every place.
I dont know maybe I am jsut crazy, Im known to be that way. I am happy though. I love my boyfriend, my family, my friends, maybe not my school as much, my car, my freedom, and my community, I just think I need to do something new.
Tomorrow is Shawon's graduation from his second year of Drill, his Operations Training, and his Awards Benifit and Scholarship Presentation. sadly I can not make it. As much as I want to be there I really need to be with my family. Shawon knows I want to be there for him and what-not but cant. Thats the thing I love about him the most is that he always understands. He is, however, coming in about two weeks to spend the week and go to the Mountians with mommy and Brian.
Well its baout that time to go. I dont have much more to talk about but that today is just a very bland day. Hope everyone else has a better day then what mine is right now.
Much Love,
I love you Bob,
Jess
I dont know maybe I am jsut crazy, Im known to be that way. I am happy though. I love my boyfriend, my family, my friends, maybe not my school as much, my car, my freedom, and my community, I just think I need to do something new.
Tomorrow is Shawon's graduation from his second year of Drill, his Operations Training, and his Awards Benifit and Scholarship Presentation. sadly I can not make it. As much as I want to be there I really need to be with my family. Shawon knows I want to be there for him and what-not but cant. Thats the thing I love about him the most is that he always understands. He is, however, coming in about two weeks to spend the week and go to the Mountians with mommy and Brian.
Well its baout that time to go. I dont have much more to talk about but that today is just a very bland day. Hope everyone else has a better day then what mine is right now.
Much Love,
I love you Bob,
Jess