Going Nowhere Fast

[lil_blue_angel4]

Well things took even more of a dramatic turn for me tonight. My best friend who hasnt really been speaking to me for reasons I dont care on sharing, tells me tonight that my newest love Bob, has cheated on me. Well at first I didnt know what to do. Then I got a hold of him he says he didnt. I call the girl he supposdly cheated on me with. She says yes she hooked up with him. Then I put Bob on the phone and she tells him that they didnt hook up. Then I call her again and she says they did and once more she tells Bob they didnt. So then I saw the other person who apperantly Bob cheated on me with and the story was minamal almost to the point where nothing truely happened. But now I ma sitting here and wondering if the choice I made is right. I chose to believe Bob. I went back outside I said we are starting over, I completely re-entroduced myself to him and he did the same. We started to laugh and well I really dont want to believe he did anything at all. Thats just me.

I do love Bob, and Yes I am still in lvoe with Matt Fisher, and I have the balls to admit it. I dont currently know whats going on in my life and for starters I really dont care anymore. So if anyone is hurt by anything I happen to say to you after light of all recent events, dont take it to heart.

I love only myself right now. Thats all I will ever need to love. If anyone else loves me great, but right now the love I feel for myself is enough to get me by.

Bob I dont know what the truth is and honestly I dont care anymore. I have moved on I told you I trust you and if you hang yourself with that trust then thats your problem not mine.

Good Night and Sweet Dreams everyone

Tonight I only Love Jessica Rene Wishnefsky