Use me as you will, pull my strings just for a thrill...
hmm wut an interesting life i live....
my weeks are on a broken record
work...
school....
sleep....
im confused right now. i miss my past, yet want a better future. i need help, help to have a better change. to have a smile on my face everyday. not with one week being sad and constantly wondering...and then having the next happy and excited. mind games are childish...any games rather...so stop...make up ur mind.
Eaglewood....easy job..very time consuming tho. so glad i got out of target when i did.
School....im honestly trying my best. i just suck at school no matter how hard i try. couple more weeks at cod...then i will have completed a year at ASU, a semester at COD..and moving along next spring to ISU. Hopefully that change will be for the good. Im kinda nervous tho, cuz i have to go back to a dorm fer next semester...who knows who ill be with. Hell, i dont even have all my shyt from az yet. Time is moving along..but i still feel like my life is still stuck. I need a push into the right direction, to figure out my purpose here, who im supposed to be with in my life and what im supposed to accomplish. I also just met the gurl im living with next fall with at ISU. Her name is Josy. She seems pretty cool..and the apartment that we got is pretty sweet..but FAR AS HELL from campus...i need a car ASAP!
Sleep....something that i really havnt been getting enough of. Ive been running around like a mad woman with school and working extra hours...that my reoccuring mono happened. My parents dont care enough to take me to a doctor ne more for it, since theres no cure for it but rest. Which is bullshyt cuz i cant keep going thru this and i dont have time to just lay in bed for weeks, altho, i WISH...cuz that would be amazing.
Well...itz saturday..and i now need to go start sum of the shytload of hw i have..then off to werk...meeh.
PeAcE
my weeks are on a broken record
work...
school....
sleep....
im confused right now. i miss my past, yet want a better future. i need help, help to have a better change. to have a smile on my face everyday. not with one week being sad and constantly wondering...and then having the next happy and excited. mind games are childish...any games rather...so stop...make up ur mind.
Eaglewood....easy job..very time consuming tho. so glad i got out of target when i did.
School....im honestly trying my best. i just suck at school no matter how hard i try. couple more weeks at cod...then i will have completed a year at ASU, a semester at COD..and moving along next spring to ISU. Hopefully that change will be for the good. Im kinda nervous tho, cuz i have to go back to a dorm fer next semester...who knows who ill be with. Hell, i dont even have all my shyt from az yet. Time is moving along..but i still feel like my life is still stuck. I need a push into the right direction, to figure out my purpose here, who im supposed to be with in my life and what im supposed to accomplish. I also just met the gurl im living with next fall with at ISU. Her name is Josy. She seems pretty cool..and the apartment that we got is pretty sweet..but FAR AS HELL from campus...i need a car ASAP!
Sleep....something that i really havnt been getting enough of. Ive been running around like a mad woman with school and working extra hours...that my reoccuring mono happened. My parents dont care enough to take me to a doctor ne more for it, since theres no cure for it but rest. Which is bullshyt cuz i cant keep going thru this and i dont have time to just lay in bed for weeks, altho, i WISH...cuz that would be amazing.
Well...itz saturday..and i now need to go start sum of the shytload of hw i have..then off to werk...meeh.
PeAcE