Life Is Shit...
I just don't understand certain things...like why the hell is it that when people get your hopes up and then smash them into tiny little pieces. I mean I've been through this before with my parents too many times to count and it even still continues with one of my parents. Then it seems other people who say they care find a way to do the same exact thing. So I've been finding myself kinda lost in my emotions today. Nothing grabs my attention and keeps me busy, I"m confused about how I'm feeling and I just don't understand. I guess I'm lost in myself. It doesn't happen very often except when something really bothers me. I don't want to rant and give names and everything but its not Austin I'm talking about. Hes always makes sure I"m happy or at least trys his hardest.
Its buggy the hell out of me cause I can't even think of how I want to write this journal entry...and I've been like this ALL DAY LONG! And I can't fix it....total basket case along with unstable emotions. I just feel down right depressed and irritated. Its about money and a certain somebody *coughs* Not attending in paying me back for what they used when it was birthday money they were barrowing. It just really hurts...is all. I just don't know what to do. I just feel fucking rotten, let down like everything else in my life. I wonder why I decided to feel again when I had those pesky emotions barried somewhere deep down inside myself and didn't feel them. I doubt I'm gettin my next tattoo or anything else. So another celebrated birthday destroyed and shot down. No one ever keeps their word anymore...it means nothing.
Its buggy the hell out of me cause I can't even think of how I want to write this journal entry...and I've been like this ALL DAY LONG! And I can't fix it....total basket case along with unstable emotions. I just feel down right depressed and irritated. Its about money and a certain somebody *coughs* Not attending in paying me back for what they used when it was birthday money they were barrowing. It just really hurts...is all. I just don't know what to do. I just feel fucking rotten, let down like everything else in my life. I wonder why I decided to feel again when I had those pesky emotions barried somewhere deep down inside myself and didn't feel them. I doubt I'm gettin my next tattoo or anything else. So another celebrated birthday destroyed and shot down. No one ever keeps their word anymore...it means nothing.